She Belongs to HIM

Simple yet meaningful

2009-07-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

TUESDAY ! Goodnews , why ?

BECAUSE DARLING IS ON OFF DAY .
Best & Greatest news that I always waited to hear from him everyweek .
he reached my house at 10am in the morning and waited 3hours for me to awake from my sleep , right beside me ! Darling didn't want to wake me up because he knows that I'm currently facing sleeping problems , my bedtime is totally mess up ! If anyone of you had that problems before , you should know how suffering is it . Darling went to fetch my little sister back from school with me & had our lunch at 'Station1 ' . After having lunch together with my sister and fetching her back home safely , since I wanted darling to relax for today , therefore I will be driving him around today . So after few hours later we headed to 'Alexis ' that located inside The Garden for dessert , I wouldn't want to miss the chance to go there & have my lunch / dinner & dessert everytime I shop with friends or others. The atmosphere of the restaurant is outstanding & the food is delicious , Not to miss out the dessert too ! especially the ' Tiramisu ' was just too good that I can actually capable of eating the whole entire cake ! This is why it has been my all time favorite . Anyways me and darling order ourselve each a slice of tiramisu , as for drinks he ordered cappuccino & I ordered Raspberry soda .
We have a walk after our dessert , in midvalley & pet's wonderland too !
SIMPLE DAY YET STILL AS MEANINGFUL AS ALWAYS .

Eaten the tiramisu a little before this picture was capture ;p

;D

2009-07-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

Wake my piggy darling up today asusual to prepare himself , Meanwhile to prepare myself too .

After that we headed to Tropicana City 's GSC to purchase movie ticket '' Land Of The Lost '' before we went for our breakfast . We had our breakfast in a taiwanese restaurant somewhere near GSC so that we can take our own sweet time to eat instead of rushing to cinema earlier .

Land of the lost is an awesome movie though , quite hillarious . After movie finished , I have to say byebye to darling, he's going to work again .

Around 6.00pm I drove out to subang ss15 to COD the stuff that Soekman ordered & lead soekman and her bf to Ikano pet's safari . Reached home around 11pm , play dota with winsern / dee / shawn & darling ! but sadly darling dced at the first round .

The beautiful truth about you ♥

2009-07-25T23:56:00.002+08:00

I could turn my toes to really realised when's the last time I seriously blogged about my life with darling . Couldn't belive I've got this chance to blog about us again !
Darling suppose to spend his day with me today since he said he will be on off today , but things changed , a phone call from his collegue & there he go ,rushing to work again since darling told me that there's this new project launching today and he need to be there to make sure everything goes smooth . ISHHH , I'm waiting patiently at home for about 7hours ? was quite pissed actually .

After exact 7hours later , he finally remember me and ring my phone tell me that he's on the way to my house . Wanted to ignore him by the time he reach but I dont bear too ;(

Anyways , darling said he wanted to bring me to a place , is a suprise actually , but before that he wants me to change from shorts into long jeans , tank top into t-shirt ? was wondering why he asked to me do that until the car passed by batu cave !

HE IS BRINGING ME TO GENTING ! Words cannot describe how happy I was that time .

When we reached Genting Highland & found parking slot , the first thing that comes to my mind was ''FOOD'' , I don't know why I'm getting hungry so often these days , so after walking same places for 3 times inside the first world theme park area ,because darling ( NOT WE ) is kindda lost that time ! we headed to Kenny's Roger to have our dinner . Unbelivable that I told darling I'm still in the mood of eating & feeling hungry , while darling were grumbling for eating too full , that he couldn't even stand up straight , so we decided to go outside and have a walk near the water fountain that located in centre of the courtyard before we continue hunt for foods again . Owh , darling force me to eat '' Kwai Ling Ko '' for my own good that taste so horrible too . YUCKS !

After a long walk & talk , it's time to go home before the places covered by a heavy fog & since it's already midnight , I open up the glass panel sunroof then lay down & staring up at the beauteous night sky and innumerable stars twinkling , while darling driving ! eventhough he can't enjoy watching this beautiful scenery with me because he have to concentrate on driving , but I'm already glad that he's right beside me . After a very unexpected suprise darling gave me today , I feel much more happier & bless then before . He totally never fail to make my day . I've waited a long time for this day and it certainly has been worth for me to wait for you to fulfill your promise! I had a great time overall even though It's only few hours , we both know the fact that nothing good lasts for long, so we shall make it more worthy now . Darling you totally complete my day & made my life such a joy .

I love you, truly & wholeheartedly , that's really all that you need to know

Took this pic while darling on phone & never expect him to pose behind me
Miss Blur & Mr. Happy

Loves

Look at darling's evil smile ! SCARY

Kiss me & Don't let me go ♥

Went Crazy & Bite darling's hand

My one and only acting innocent ♥

The ''Kwai Ling Ko '' darling force me to eat

end up darling pity me & help me finish almost half of it

Take a picture incase we don't remember where we park since darling is SUPER FORGETFUL

random post

2009-07-15T22:33:00.005+08:00

Let me count August intake is zooming by & I'm definitely not looking forward to . Approximately around 20 odd days , I'm going to start studying again . Which means another hectic year approaching. Anyways I think I need to keep track on what is happening to me .Recently, I've been experiencing awful pain in my stomach & vomitted out everything I drank or ate . I'm not really sure if it's due to my gastric problems or something else ,but I no longer have appetite to eat in daytime, my cravings only comes at midnight when I'm stressed up and depressed . Usually when that time comes I would just gobble down whatever food I can find in the kitchen cabinet or tupperwares. Or else, i can just hype around with empty stomach.
No kidding !

IMISSYOURYANCHAN ♥
eventhough you are always busy & got no time for me.

Babe ♥

2009-07-10T03:13:00.007+08:00

I am actually dead tired for the fact that I slept at 5am this morning and woke up at 8am to prepare myself to meet up with Hillary later for shopping . I only manage to catch 3 hours of sleep before my day started ! It has been quite some time since I've actually done some shopping and I overspend my money today which result that I won't have enough cash for next hang out anymore .

THAT IS VERY BAD HABBIT I'VE ALWAYS GOT & WILL EVERYTIME END UP REGRETING

Anyways , we went 4 malls today . TheCurve -> 1U -> KLCC -> Pavillion . I realised that I actually dont have to be awkward and try to strike up conversations with her even though we havent met for VERY LONG and she's still herself, never fail to make me laugh. Even when she's being sacarstic, its funny & enjoy being with her . Though it's only a couple of hours together, it's a nice catch up! When it's time to say goodbye, my heart really ache so badly as i dont know when is the next time i'm seeing her again . Somehow my feeling tells me that it's not going to be so soon .

Okays , I am exhausted from head to toe after been to so many malls & walking for so many hours , so before darling fetch me back home from Pavillion we headed to a restaurant there & had our dinner together , I've forgotten the name of that restaurant but I only remember that I couldn't finish the dish because I seriously feeling aching everywhere and wanted to go home as fast as possible .

we barely took any photos today and those are the few rare shots we took inside the changing rooms & shops !

Awaiting for you to brighten up my days ♥

2009-07-09T23:36:00.004+08:00

I'm just too frustrated sometimes to revealing out how I feel. Especially when I have no sense of directions, no destination but tons of decisions and insufficient money to spend ! It's so ironic when each day I have to carry a smile when there are so much pressing on my mind and so hard to get ahead. Although my mind is loaded with so much things lately ,but I still feel that life's been good when darling is around me especially when everything seems meaningless . When I asked darling not to find me anymore yesterday, I thought he seriously mean it . But when I woke up & open my eyes , darling was right beside me on my bed, staring at me while I was sleeping and waited quite somewhile for me to wake up from my sleep . I totally went silent for a moment as I never expected this would happen and felt very fortunate to have him deep down in my heart, he's just too good to be true . Bounce to 1u to catch up the movie that darling always wanted to watch 'Ice Age 3 Dawn Of The Dinosaurs ' that movie was hilarious and a must to watch . Right after that movie ends, both of us went The Curve 'Kim Gary' to have dinner since we missed out our breakfast & Lunch . Not forgetting going out with my babe Hillary tomorrow , it's been such a long time eversince we meet and crazy around together .

P/S : mindcry I seriously think the problem lies in you , are you desparate or something ? keep on mentioning about boobs / tit fark or whatsoever shits . You better consult a psychologist before it's too late ! You think by throwing me all those words to against me will lower down my self esteem? Then you're just wrong if you do so . There is this saying "Don't judge the book by its cover" .Well, I'm not getting agitated over such things like this for sure. Neither am I gonna bother about it as I'm happy with what I have . Please do not act as if you know me or meet me before in real person when you and I are nothing but just strangers. If you're actually educated before , you should know that it's not a very nice thing to badmouth about people , just mind your own business will you ?

Dont say Goodbye ♥

2009-07-08T23:57:00.013+08:00

I've been hurt physically and mentally , Loads of stuff has been going on .Especially quarreling with my parents making me feel like I'm not being loved & keep questioning myself ' Do I even deserve their loves ' ? We quarrel mostly because of ? Comparisons ! Owh. I seriously fucking hate it when they trying to compare me with someone else . Everyone is different & everyone is unique in their own different way . I don't have to bother what they say actually, neither should I give a damm to it . But it's because they're my parents that gave me my life and brings me to this world , that is the fucking main point of why am I so emo lately. Just hope this will be over soon . Did I mention that I've been Suffering from insomnia recently due to depression & those unsolved problems too ? Can someone just drunk me and let me have a nice rest ! I got no idea of what I doing and the reasons of it . But what suprise me most was I randomly told darling not to find me anymore out of a sudden .
LIKE WHATHE FUCK AM I DOING ? someone slap me hard on my face please . You feel that you have lesser time for me previously because of your job and you had already fork out as much time as possible to keep me company but yet ? IM BEING SUCHA BITCH to say all this words out just now ! YES , we do had arguements & conflicts sometimes ,but you're then one who teach me to be honest when I'm fear of confrontation . We made each other upset, cry & angry , but that has made our bonds stronger between us , day by day as time pass by .

Before I ended today's post .

I wanna declare something.
I love you my Darling .

P/S: My heart is fragile ,time is needed to recover from what I've been going through.

Deep Shit !

2009-07-05T23:37:00.005+08:00

MissJessicaYeeKarYanIsVeryMoodyNow

Woke up early morning , drive to seapark to buy Chicken rice & Ice Cham for darling while he is still sleeping . Plan to buy the Chicken rice that's opposite Midvalley , I've forgotten the name of that shop but when I'm on the way there Darling called and ask where am I .
Then my plan failed ! I couldn't go that far to buy for him anymore since I don't want him to wait for me that long that's why go seapark instead .When I reach home he ask ''you go seapark just to buy for me ? '' and I gave him a fake silly reply of '' No ! I buy for you while I'm on the way back collecting back my disc from grandma house '' ! HEHES.
Everything goes well until , I quarrel with my parents ! which really pissed me off sometimes , then I drive out for awhile and they called . ISHH , so i answer their calls & get more scolding.
Was driving that time and seriously can't concentrate so I actually told them that I'm driving and hang their call. After just FEW SECONDS , they called back scold me from hanging their calls & continue questioning me ' WHY THIS / WHY THAT , and that was the time where the traffic in my brain is driving me insane so I hang their calls again . Few seconds later , they called again ? WOW , I start don't answer their calls anymore & continue driving, but they still keep on calling ! After few min , When I couldn't stand anymore & answer their call then .. BANG !
Owh I Bang someone else car till that person's car plate almost fall off & the back bumper bent inward . YES , It's that serious but nothing happen to my car so I went down and settle with that driver ! I hope this happens to me but not the driver so my money won't flow away like this. Guess what ?
I'M FREAKING LACK OF MONEY & NOW EVEN WORST BECAUSE OF THIS . really need a job urgently ! *CRIES*

Elmo's 2nd jab

2009-07-04T23:36:00.005+08:00

Was on phone with darling yesterday and he said wanted to accompany me to bring Elmo for 2nd jab this morning , but I insist not to let him go since he's working today . I'm affraid that this delay would cause him more work to be done in limited time and end up ? Rushing / Stress / Lack of Sleep / Not eating / Sick or so on , I'm very concern of him and do not wish those things happen on him ! So yea , He cannot come along ! BUT THEN .
When I just finish bathing this morning and preparing to bring Elmo for 2nd jab , darling appear infront of me ! Was very shocked that time as I didn't expect that he actually have time , I was told that he finished his job and rush to accompany me to bring baby Elmo to vet together
* Deeply Touched *
Before bring baby Elmo to vet we went Pappa Rich again to have our breakfast ! YES , AGAIN ! I wonder anyone can recommend me those nice places for breakfast so that I can replace it with Pappa Rich . IAMBORED OF IT ! After we had our breakfast we went back home to bring Elmo to vet and waited baby Elmo around 10min to finish it's 2nd jab , then bring it back for a rest ! Meanwhile Darling go online and check what movie is available to watch tonight .Then end up Darling told me that he wanted watch'' Ice Age 3 Dawn Of The Dinosaurs '' but I wanted watch '' The Last House On The Left Lake '' so what to do ? We use the '' scissor / paper / stone '' game to decide ! 3 rounds . Winner can choose the movie they wanted to watch , I know this might sounds a little childish but hey ! It's fun and the best way to do when it comes to cases like mine .
RESULT : DARLING WON . 2/3
Argh ! eventhough he didn't cheat but I accuse him that he cheated that time so I request to start the game over again ! I'm mean right ? Second round ..
RESULT : DARLING WON AGAIN
He's just plain lucky today , JUST TODAY ! nomore next time .
Then we went to Midvalley for pets exhibition & watch the Pet creative & styling modeling show / Rabbit competition / Obedience Trials & loads more interesting stuff before going 1u to purchase our movie tickets.
But guess what ? End up when we reach 1u & queueing for movie tickets , the movie darling wanted to watch which is ' Ice Age 3 Dawn Of The Dinosaurs '
SOLD OUT ! Woots. It's Fated that we should watch ' The Last House On The Left Lake ' ! ;D
Darling Purchase 12.00am ticket & it will end around 2am midnight since 9.40pm seats is second roll from screen . 4hours and 30 min to reach 12am ! While waiting the time to pass we went home to have a rest since darling have been driving me here and there . As for me , I'm half alive when reach home . Straight away rest my eyes before movie start !

The Last House On The Left Lake
RATED : 3/10 ( Don't ask me why )

iloveyoudarling, I'm happy that you're free from your work & suprise me by appearing infront of my doorway to accompany me & cheer me up too. How I just wish time could stop so that everyday is happy day for you and me

Darling ♥

2009-07-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

♥ HAPPY 7TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY DARLING ♥

Shop For Elmo =3

2009-06-30T00:07:00.008+08:00

Have a Fun day with darling today, went 1U for movie and when we're on the way home , we almost forgotten that Little Elmo Food is finishing . Luckily I reminded him ! so me and darling decided to go Ikano Pet Safari to buy our baby's can food before Ikano close , also went Cold Storage to buy additional vegetables to add in Elmo's meal . Corn / Carrot

I'm bad in choosing those vegetables/ fruits as I never really did that before , so darling will do that job for me. Thanks & Loves

Choosing & Paying for Little Elmo

Darling ♥

2009-06-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

Darling promise to come over tonight to accompany me ,so I waited till the night comes around 8.30pm ! suprisingly , he have time for me . I was shocked, eversince he changed job to work in event company he is 24/7 BUSY ! No kidding.This night is the first time I guess that there is no calls from his customers / clients . Peaceful night that I always wish for and hope this could happen everytime when I spend time with him . Just me and him together without interruption ! We went to had our dinner somewhere nearby our house and wanted watched 'Monster VS alien ' after our dinner .But I was busy watching the last 2 episode of a hongkong 's drama , it was so excited that I HAVE TO finish watching all the episode before watching other movies and it is too late to watch 'Monster VS alien' after finishing watching that drama ! So we went off to bed and have a nice sleep , I'm looking forward tomorrow since he is on offday ! WHHHEEEE.

Thankyou .

2009-06-28T23:29:00.000+08:00

Today was totally not how I want everything turns out to be,as I didn't expect not only mom & dad quarrelled but me & my little sister too . My mood was really unstable that time also due to my PMS that is killing me and question mark myself that who would stand by me to cheer me up and whatsoever ! But , I just too much sometimes and I really think I need a break in this .
After that Went Midvalley & Garden with Ruby and all to have Dinner together in Zanmai .
Sorry Couldn't accompany you guys for a movie , was in rush and need to reach home on time if not I'm seriously going to be in trouble ! But overall I had fun chatting today , thanks for bringing my smile back ;)

The queue is very long ! HUNGRY

The food we ordered ' handroll ' ' sushi ' 'curry potato '

udon noodles & Beef rice

Dinner with lover ♥

2009-06-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

Darling was busy this whole week because all the events is going on the same time this week and he felt regret that he got no time for me ! hehs, so he called me up for a dinner tonight and hope to spend some time with me , I immediately accepted to go dinner with him eventhough I was full and don't feel like eating that time but I know I could accompany him , I was so happy deep in heart that he still rememeber me and my existence ! Waited him to fetch me from home and decided to go 'Pak Li Kopitiam ' to try since we never been there before and kindda bored of Pappa Rich . OMFG ! According what he said after having just ONE BITE of the food he already feel regret that he should just go Pappa Rich instead .
* laugh out louds *
Bought 2 DVDs which is Disney's cartoon movie 'Up' & 'Monster VS Alien' to watch at my home after having dinner but we only manage to watch 'Up' because time is running fast ,it's late and time to sleep again ! Darling still need to go for work tomorrow don't want him to be late ;)

Friday ;D

2009-06-26T22:53:00.007+08:00

Woke up early morning around 8am and get myself prepare for COD with soekman ;)
Guess what ? I spend about 1hour finding ss15/4 to House of Groom and endup only realise the direction to there was actually the way to Taylor Business School . How silly is that ! Anyways , I am happy to meet soekman and her Boyfriend which followed her all the way from malacca to KL just to groom their precious furkids ,base on this I can already see how much they love their kids & give the best for it. That is how we get this chance to COD the goods that she ordered and meet each other furkids ! I was so Envy that she could have 4 cute toydogs , How I wish I can own 1 more ! Owh , did i mention i bring Elmo along too ;D
had my lunch at my aunt's place and drove back home after that ! I hope Twinnie get well soon from her fever , I don't bear to see her suffer from illness.
FASTER GET WELL SOON & EAT YOUR MEDICINE ON TIME !!
Also hope darling still remember what he have to do tomorrow .
Hehs ! Elmo's wee wee pad is finishing .

JOB NEEDED SO BADLY
LACK OF MONEY & FEEL VERY DEPRESSED

DADDY ♥

2009-06-21T23:11:00.006+08:00

Happy Father's Day Daddy ILOVEYOU !

Sorry Stephanie aiai that I couldn't make it to Midvalley to accompany you while Kenneth is having group discussion with his friend.but I really do hope we get to hang out together next week!I just remember I've got lot of things waiting to do and need to be done before my college start.

-Hang out with Wilson , bring him to eat pan mee and he is also going to bring me in return for panmee & icecream ;p
-Discussion with Squall about something & eat more durian with him.Please nomore herb drinks this time
-Camwhore and shopping with out with Stephanie & Karyyan .
-Have lunch with Hillary & spend the whole afternoon have a nice chat with her
-Research on flea market . A MUST
-Searching for job ! financially broke

Suprise ♥

2009-06-20T23:39:00.003+08:00

Was very upsad past few days about something personal which I do not feel like revealing it here, But after yesterday night everything goes well ! Darling came to my house and gave me suprise by buying me crystal pendant & Raisin chocolate .Then we went to have dinner with my family
in my aunt's restaurant somewhere in SeaPark area and also midnight movie with darling.
''Blood the last vampire ''
Movie Rating : 4/10
Me & Darling got into a small quarrel before heading to GSC in 1Utama but everything was settled in time . The reason why I rated it 4/10 was because everything is just too fake ! Finished that movie around 2am then Darling fetch me back home .

Sorry for not updating.

2009-06-10T22:44:00.006+08:00

I'm not sure myself of why am I not updating but everything seems like there's no reasons to update anymore ! SOMETIMES , I really don't get why does peoples have the time to criticize others but not correcting themselve by shutting their mouth instead ?

Alright , after 2months of waiting , I finally found my desire toy poodle and named it ELMO .

Will show you guys the picture of ELMO later, super duper adorable .There's also something about what's going on me that I guess not much people know about it except Kary-yan , Squall & Darling . I'm obsessed with dog's clothes ! Seriously , I don't know why I find them real cute and pets deserve to get pampered too by wearing nice clothing on it .Somehow , I'm doing quite alot of research on this and concluded this is not so popular in Malaysia . I Guess this is also one of the reasons why am I not updating my blog ! Eventhough it's not advisable to start business on this ! But I insist to try , a small business will do , so that things could work out like how I really hope it does and I really hope to get supported instead of telling me not to try and all ! each and every encouragement really means alot to me ! YES , I'm lack of money now to start , but nomatter what it takes for me to go through so that I'm sufficient of money I'm willing to do so ! ViVi dear , Takecare of your health please ! Don't drink anymore , I really don't want anything to happen on you . You're not stupid ass nor bitch , but a lovely darling to us . Even you think that you started it but I'm sure you don't want things to goes wrong right .

Name : ELMO
Date Of Birth : April27

2nd injection .

2009-05-18T23:03:00.002+08:00

The 3rd injection is 5months later ! ARGHH .

I hope the second day I wake up is OCT18 which is the day I going for 3rd injection then NOMORE injection .I think I've dream/watch TV too much , just hoping this kind of things will happen in my life, which everyone knows this will not happen in reality. Eventhough it's not pain while they inject in but AFTER THAT is dreadful ! My class is halfday today bec of this injection thingy, which is also consider a good thing I guess, so right after my injection I went out lunch with mummy in 'TheCurve' we had our lunch in 'Little Penang Street' & 'The Apartment ' . Mummy was in a very good appetite and she wanted try both of the restaurant ,not only this but also in a very very good camwhore mood. I've already got slight fever before injection & I realised is getting worst now FEVER + HEADACHE !

Went to pasar malam with sister at night in SS2 , a visit to grandparents house and bought them 'popiah' from pasar malam before going home .

I felt so happy to have her as my mummy and see her enjoying her day , even sometimes she may drive me crazy with her nagging and whinning .Somehow deep down inside my heart ,I know she's the one who gives me love deep within my heart and soul . Not to miss out my family too ! Truly love them ♥

allergy to prawns ;(

2009-05-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

Woke up around 10am in the morning to prepare myself to go breakfast with family later in Jaya33 at Oriental Pavilion Chinese Restaurant for my favorite DIMSUM .
After having breakfast , since I've nothing much to do today , I told my parents that I would follow wherever they go today ! went to quite alot of places and so sorry that I couldn't remember the name those places I went , as you guys know I'm getting more and more forgetful recently . Came back around 5pm to take a bath and so on ! I relised that I hadn't been beauty concious for quite awhile , so I actually went to find the left over mask that I haven't finish last time to apply it on face ! HEHS. Going to buy more ! eyes mask needed. Time for dinner ! this time I didn't know what is for dinner until I reached that place somewhere near Bukit Tinggi . I wouldn't have go if i knew that they're going there for seafood. I rather stay at home and study ! YES, I'm serious .

Crazy women spoted

After my hair dried & mask

Sushi day ;)

2009-05-16T23:55:00.004+08:00

Today is definitely a satisfy day for me , except the part where I bang on something when I was reversing out from the car park in 1U ! I know I sucks in it , Don't ask me how I pass my Driving test but I can 100% assure & tell you guys that I never bribe . 100% skills only ! ;) Not kidding . Today woke up quite early for jogging, bought my favorite'' tau fu fa ''and I have received message from MR.DUMB SQUALL whom also admit himself as handsome squall .

[ Don't mind him , he self praise ALOT & when I mean ALOT ,it's seriously loads till you wouldn't want to imagine . HAHAHAHAHAS ]

Meet KahKheng in ''Ikano'' then head to '' Cineleisure '' to have lunch in Mcdonald , since I'm going ''TheCurve'' just for the strawberries that only can be found there on saturday and sunday , in addition he told me that he's working in Ikano today so yea . We went out for lunch together since It's near ! After having lunch with Kahkheng , we chit-chat for awhile and he needa rush back for work , so I just continue to look for the strawberries that I wanted to buy and straight away bounce to 1U to meet up with Kary-yan sweetheart & Winsern after I received call from Kary-yan !

Guess what ? I'm late again . Kary-yan sweetheart called and told me she's there and asked ''where am I ? '' , That time I was still in The Curve walking around .After that call , I immediately rush to 1U ! While waiting for me to reach 1U ,sweetheart and her mom is having sushi in'' Sanzen '' without me ! ISSSHH. Anyways , I bought 1box of strawberries for her too ! YOU SEE I'M SUCHA GOODFRIEND . We meet at ''skinfood '' & the first thing she said to me was "WALAU, YOU DYE HAIR AGAIN AR, SO NAN KAN LEH ! HAHAHAHAHA '' Yea, that's what she said , I should have shoot her back about your new hairstyle . Nvm , still got next time ! you be patience and wait ok ? Sweetheart & her mom spend so much in skinfood just now , I was so envy both of them ;( Went Cold Storage to buy groceries with her mom too and I talked to her mom more then sweetheart today ! LOL , I know you feel lonely and jealous right ?

After that I have to go already due to Winsern has been waiting for me in 1U about 1hour or more. Feel bad ! So byebye Kary-yan & Hello Winsern . Wanted to scare Winsern while he waiting for me infront of MPH entrance there but then ARGH , he noticed me ! so my plan failed , then we went A&W for drinks and sushi king after that. I hate the food in ''SushiKing '' but then I end up eating there for no reasons. Suprisingly , Winsern took loads of pics of me when I was eating in sushi king & my camwhoring mood is back again , I'm ONLY in a very good appetite when it comes to sushi . Not long after finish dishes that was served in ''SushiKing'' , my mom called and asked me to go back home , so Byebye to Winsern and I went back home after that . Before I was on my way back home from 1u , 3 incidents happened.

Forgot to pay at the autopay station when I reached the exit place, so I reverse all the way back and find that machine.
Bang on something while I was reversing back . DANMMIT !
Drove wrong direction when I was on my way back home , end up in KL & lost there. In the end spend 1hour or more to find my way back luckily I manage to find the way back home.

I know I am dumb in finding my way back and I've got no sense of direction .Anyway ,my heart was bumping so fast when I first reached home , I affraid that my parents will scold me or whatsoever if I tell them about what has happened to the car . But I know that I have to face this consequence sooner or later after they found out , so I decided to be honest and tell them about it. They actually feels like nothing has happened after I told them about it and replied ''It's okay , nvm '' .______. After that talk , we went ''OZEKI'' asusual for dinner ! I would recommend sushi's lover go to ''OZEKI '' that's opposite KLCC. The food there is super duper truper luper muper kuper fuper DELICIOUS , no matter how many times I've go there for dinner , the food still taste as good as they used too.

Mr.KahKheng with his babyface

Twinnie Kary-yan

After A&W then it's time for Sushi !

So happy when it comes to sushi ;)

Winsern took this when I was happily enjoying !

Our FOOD !

but end up I finished all the soup instead of noodle

Alien is eating !

Greedy

The white scratches after that accident & went OZEKI with family

Mummy & Daddy

Adore her ♥

Daddy ♥

Busy with phone

Mummy busy eating

Happy moments

♥

BACK !

2009-05-15T21:58:00.009+08:00

Sorry everyone I've been MIA awhile , due to insufficient of sleeps and YES! If you've chat with me lately , I'm hell busy & guess what ? HOMEWORK IS KILLING ME.

Frequently finding excuses hoping to skip class which I know I can't bec if I does , I will need to face a serious consequence .

Will Update what is happening today

I'm late 1hour for class
Finish my presentation
Went out of topic for my previous essay ! BLOODY TOOT
Went midvalley & 1U for shopping .
Drive around & visit grandparents.
Pratically nothing much happened except the fact that I was FFK by Kary-yan ! ARGH . If not today will be a great day !

MAY 12TH

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY KARY-YAN

You've been an awesome great friend to me eversince I knew you .

Kar Yan ♥ Kary Yan

people are just getting lifeless ?

2009-05-04T02:39:00.004+08:00

Seriously !
SORRY , IF YOU HATE ME JUST FUCK OFF FROM MY BLOG .
I did my best to control my spending and I tell you guys proudly that the way I spend now is way better then before , FYI ! I don't need a job to support myself .
I work to kills time .
Do I care if i got small boobs or flat or whatsoever shits & does it matter you ?
IS LIKE ,NON OF YOUR BUSINESS TO EVEN CARE I'M FLAT OR LAZY .
I love who I am now .
Before saying others , please go look infront of mirror . I don't think anyone of you who judged me would actually look any better & Who are you to even judge me ?

You know I would appreciate if lifeless peoples like you guys , don't disturb me for a moment ?

When I'm seriously not in the mood ? I would entertaine you guys sooner or later when everything goes well .

p/s : sorry readers for my vulgarities in this post, some of them are just so lifeless ;)

love mummy ♥

2009-05-03T22:11:00.001+08:00

Went Out with daddy & sister for dinner today, since mummy is not free bec she need to attend her cousin's daughter wedding dinner ! IMISSHERSOBADLY , eventhough it's just for awhile.
Had dinner in 1U 's TGIF & dessert in Haagen Dazs , we actually discuss and plan about what we gonna do on the upcoming mother's day & what gift would suprise her .
At the end of dinner we only concluded that jewelry is definitely not what she wants . Is kindda hard to suprise her when she owns almost everything that she desire to have .
Lots of effort is going to put in this , so that mummy will have a very special and unique memorable mother's day !

happy + sad = ?

2009-04-19T21:16:00.018+08:00

Went Out & spend loads of money today ! I'm still not enough ;( I WANT TO GO 1U SO BADLY ! ARGH, is there anyone kind here to spare me money? ! LOL my sweetheart Kary-yan suppose to sleep over tonight , but then don't know why she can't in the end ! I so need someone like her to be my listener and ease my pain away for today , feeling so much pain that I cant ever see myself getting better ? So I choose to buried them in my heart eventhough this led to so much resentment. I feel like the '' don’t ask don’t tell policy'' have been implemented somehow . Anyways I Take LRT to KLCC around 11.30am & meet her up , after that we take LRT again to kelana jaya and cab to The curve for shopping till 6pm . Ryan fetch us back to my house and he chill there for awhile since he's so busy ! while waiting for my sweetheart's mom to come over my house pick her up I cook her dinner ;) both of our stomach keep on growling non stop because we never taken breakfast nor lunch today ! Almost forgotten to tell you guys that my sweetheart ' POKKAI '( fell down ) 2TIMES today !! LMAO .

I'M LAZY & WILL REPLY TAG AS SOON AS POSSIBLE ! SORRY ;(

my feet Hurts like hell !

2009-04-18T22:08:00.004+08:00

Went checked out the outlets that need to be check with darling today & walk around so many places till the skin is peeling off the bottom of both my feet because I was wearing heels that is not my size,walking around for so many hours & it hurt so badly ,but I still choose to wear it eventhough I knew it was going to end up like this . I know I'm stubborn & will NEVER change my mind until I'm proven wrong , so I went caring pharmacy and bought plaster when I couldn't resist the pain anymore .

Last day of work ;)

2009-04-12T19:44:00.007+08:00

ARGH ! I'm so gonna make myself busy everyday by going to work so that I would not miss you. Do you know that I miss you crazyly, insanely, muchly much ? this feeling of missing someone so madly but that someone is busy and got no time for you sucks to core ! If I were granted just one wish , it would be YOU , bec we rarely talk like how we used to be & as time pass by slowly maybe you won't care bother to spend time together with me anymore ? I wonder will this happen between us . Anyways, forget it ! I won't rant anymore about this for the moment if not I could have ranted about many other things too.
Twinnie wanted to give me a suprise by coming Ikano to visit me while I was working , so she sms and said '' She will not be coming anymore '' but end up I was having my break when the time she arrive there , so she called me & I run all the way from The Curve to Ikano to meet her up when I know she came ,while I was walking around in The Curve that time . sorry I ruin your plan my love , after that I 'snake' for 1hours + to spend time with her & we decided to buy the lovely white dress caught our eye while we was shopping this week . You're the only one would be always there for me to reduce my needs for tissue !
IADOREYOU KARY-YAN ♥
I've got noting else to post due to my emotionals

Our pictures

2nd day!

2009-04-11T23:41:00.002+08:00

Darling woke me up in 8.30am & buy me breakfast from PAPARICH , since his schedule is so busy today ,we got no time to take our own sweet time to have breakfast there.
so I ate my breakfast in the car while he fetching me to work . You wouldn't want to imagine how rush was it. He drop me in the entrance of The curve and went off WITHOUT even saying GOODBYE or whatsoever . Was so pissed of him !
More promoter today were there working for the international food fair & this is how I get to know Alicia ! Both of us were there trying our very best to approach more customer to buy the product we are promoting for ! everything went very well for me today, but not her! Alicia's sales wasn't very good . Do belive effort will paid off, you will never know if you don’t try ! ;)
I was so happy when twinnie sms-ed me around 3.00pm and told me that maybe she is coming over tomorrow to Ikano . I'm always looking forward to see her !
Went home very late today due to no transport & off I go to bed . Fugging tired !

going back home

1stday of work .

2009-04-10T23:58:00.001+08:00

Time passes so fast I wonder how time flies & It's time to work AGAIN.
woke up 7.00am in the morning to prepare since I'm gonna work in Ikano later.
I find that work is actually not as bad as I thought , except the fact that it hurts like hell whenever I'm aching everywhere after that & it makes my days worsen .
Nothing special happen today.
However I hope the supervisor will actually put me in malls that more people will shop in , bec I totally HATE the quiet enviroment there. At least for this period ever since i have ranted out, which is the sad days where I have to work in pathetic quiet environment with no customers .
maybe not '' no customers'' just not much & that matter influence my daily sales which will bring bad impression of me to the company if my sales is not good .
I take 30min of my working hour to buy ingredient that I need in coldstorage bec I promise darling to cook him dinner tonight. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I DID THIS FOR A GUY ! gosh, what is wrong with me & he suprisingly shocked that the dinner I cooked is actually delicious , Not only him but I'm shocked myself too . Not kidding ! it taste good, I'm not self praising like how I usully did this time ;) . After dinner , darling slept over at my house to accompany me & helped me massage my legs and shoulder since it's aching really badly .
Exhasuted after working & cooking !

Shopping spreed.

2009-04-09T23:17:00.005+08:00

Suppose to go 1u but I insist to go midvalley instead since 1u's womensecret disappear out of no where ! so choose to go Midvalley '' womensecret '' today bec I thought of buying bra's out of a sudden ! I know I'm kindda random ;) but ending up buying alot from La senza but nothing from womensecret . After that I shopped in ''SASA'' ''DIVA'' ''BOBBI BROWN'' & went to Alexis for Tiramisu.
I spend total RM550+ today , WTF .
I needa save more money from now onward !
NOMORE buying unnecessary stuff
Owh, second day of ignoring darling ! he finally got time for me and asked me out at night for dinner , wanted to say NO , but I couldn't bear to say NO but said YES in the end.
SHIT! IHATEMYSELF.
After dinner , we had some serious talk of being honest & I ended up crying .

p/s :Thanks twinnie for being there for me when I need a listener so badly.YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME.

SELFCONTROL PLEASE JESSICAYEEKARYAN

Haircut ;(

2009-04-08T01:49:00.000+08:00

MY HAIR IS 2INCH SHORTER

Deeply regret that I choose to listen to my mom instead of follow my heart.

that 2inch really make a huge difference.

Driving lesson again ;)

2009-04-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

Today is a special case.
I kindda not so hate with driving now , the uncle bring me to go on the road today & freak me out at first when he told me about this. I thought he was joking , and I was told that I'm good enough to have my driving test next thursday after my first attend for on the road , so he helped me to sign in for the test & will focus more on my 'on the road session' few days before the test which is next monday - wednesday !

Darling's first day working in new company ;)

2009-04-06T15:55:00.003+08:00

It’s been a busy day for darling today & has not been a good day for him I think, since it's his first day working in new company and he have to adapt himself to a new working environment to adjusting himself into full-time work again , so most probably we will had no chance to see each other for the time being .Although it's his first day at a new job , SURPRISINGLY he still manage his time for me during lunch hours . Had lunch with Darling in somewhere that's near my house ,I forgotten the name of that restaurant but I'm happy that he's still able to spare his time for me bec I thought he is unable to have time for me anymore & busy building a life without me after he accepted this new job.! I got no idea how he knew that I love egg tarts , he bought it before he came to fetch me out for lunch today & the tarts are absolutely delicious. Thanksdarling.
Mummy Bought me a new spec from MARC JACOBS ! WOOTS.
did i mention that i'm short sighted ? ;)

p/s : Will camwhore will new spec soon .

Second & last day of working !

2009-04-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

Before Going to Work & During working hour

Darling morning call me at 7.30am & I continue to sleep after answering his call ,asusal I can't get my ass out of my bed due to lack of sleep ! I haven't had a full night sleep in a very long time ,constant night-awakenings because of nightmare .I'm feeling not so good today , extreamly bad ! I woke up with a massive headache & very sure that I'm gonna be late & wouldn't have enough time to prepare myself if I'm still taking my own sweet time .
I reached the curve's watson around 10.20am ! Just 20minute late, I guess that would be fine ! having difficulty feeling comfortable bec of the headache & feels like I'm going to collapse any minute .Instead of waiting for time to pass so that i could go home and get some rest , I find Hui Ling which is the promoter for Complete contact lens eye solution to chat with since Stephy can't go out & slack with us yet due to her supervisor might come over & check on her ! so both of us sneak out for 2hours and rest in Ikea , I've total 4hours of breaktime today ;) HEHES.
sold 31 shampoos today . 65 shampoos in 2 days ! is that consider good ? .______.
Time flies real fast as fast as the bees fly past when I'm enjoying chatting with HuiLing.
YESIT'STIMETOGOHOME !
Waited 25mins for darling to come over and fetch me home . He's late but it's okay ♥

First day of work !

2009-04-04T23:33:00.005+08:00

Woke up at 7am to prepare !
I'm so lazy that I feel like calling the supervisor of that company and tell him '' I can't make it '' Because I'm gonna stand there promoting sunsilk product for 12hours ! but i won't anyhow ffk people anymore ;)
Sold 34 Sunsilk Shampoos today & get to know a new friend named Stephy , called her Miss.Dove since she's promoting for dove product , Her uniform is so so cute , skirt / little dove bag and white tees . ENVY ! Darling fetch me back from the curve after I've done working and since he is not working tomorrow he insist to stay at my house & keep me company till 2am .
SIMPLYLOVEHIM ALOT . Gonna go sleep now, exhausted ;(
Countdown : 5 Hours more to wakeup .

My weird looking uniform

Stephy & Jess

WOOTS.

2009-04-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

I GOT MY PHONE BACK TODAY !

they confiscated my phone for oneday only !

-__________-

What a day !

2009-04-02T23:32:00.004+08:00

I wonder what is wrong with today !
My phone had confiscated by parents all because it was on silent and I never pick up their calls on time ? like I did that on purpose ? I just hope that my phone won't be taken away from me for months . They may think they got the right for confiscation & refused to return it back because they bought that with their cash , However i see ZERO-TOLERANCE /UNDERSTANDING in my parents toward this stituation of '' why is my phone on silent '' I was in the cinema watching movie , do you expect me to turn off silent mode ? How I wish I could stand out there to against cell phone confiscation but to prevent from more confiscation and scolding I choose to be quiet without arguing back .
Something there's something more irritating then phone being confiscated by parents which is my AWESOME INTERNET SPEED
My internet speeds were amazingly awesome that could makes me go crazy + driving me insane . It feels so frustrating when I desparately need to online yet having a hard time dealing with super-duper ultra slow Internet speed. ARGGHH !

♥3rd month anniversary

2009-04-01T01:18:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY DARLING

We are extremely successful together for 3 months, eventhough It's just 3months but there's so much we've been through together & you truly impressed me .Sorry that today I couldn't spare much time to accompany you due to some problems that need to be settle in limited time , but deep in heart you knew that I would always be there for you right my darling , ILOVEYOURYANCHANKIPYIP

Just back from outting with twinnie and darling .
Darling reached my house around 5.30pm then we headed to 1U and caught up with a movie which is '' KNOWING '' ! it was pretty interesting . RATED 7/10 . that movie ends around 8.30pm & off we bounce all the way to cheras leisure mall to meetup / yumcha with twinnie in WONGKOK , we enjoy chatting throughout the day & we certainly went back home happily around 12am.

To asshole Koon

2009-03-31T16:17:00.011+08:00

TO WHAT YOU'VE SAID

To Kary-Yan .I've lift up the ban on ip. You may spam on the chatbox again.

To Kar Yan.I've no idea what's wrong with you now.Do you ever know what happened between me and Yan?Did she told you everything ?Hey, I know I'm wrong, but she's purely correct?So my choice of leaving her is wrong,while the day she told me to break up is right?She can choose her happiness while I can't?I DID tried to patch up.What happen? Don't blame 100% on me alright?Ask your twinnie, WHO wanted to break, WHO doesn't want to break.Now she blocked me and I posted on my blog.I didn't even write WHO.And I can't? Spam my chatbox because of this?Hello, my blog weh. Think twice before you talk. You're not always the correct one.Yes, my english is not good, so?At least I wont use some "colourful" language.Mind my language, I'm not a very smart people to begin with.If you still take me as your one and only enemy.I got nothing to say. I've already done what I could.Take it or leave it.I'm not always the wrong one, your twinnie teach me HOW to break promises.I'm not the one to begin with,so, blame on what I'm taught and not what I DID.

Koon: Come on, shoot more. i love the environment in my chatbox. So active in just a while. Spam spam spam

I'm the one who's suppose to ask what is wrong with you ? you lift up the ban on ip on her how about me ? you're affraid that you are unable to compete with us huh ? ASK US TO SPAM MORE END UP BLOCK IP ,WTF.! She's smart that she choose to breakup and leave you this bastard, who would want to last long with you ? you definitely not what i would call man/boy but women/sissy . hahs , you might as well as don't blog out since you didn't even wrote who was that person ? due to deficient in your post that's why you're posting out ? You actually don't have to post out , NOONE would want to read your blog , you should be grateful that I actually read your latest lame post . LOL , you doesn't use ''colourful'' language doesn't mean I won't use right ? PUHLEASE , the language I'm using on you is better then your personality / attitude / character .owhyea,for your information I will only use vulgarities on person like you . I can see , you already done what you could in hurting peoples feeling , she NEVER even teach you how and you're accusing her now ? even if she did , you're sucha good dog of her's to learn whatever she did. Since you're clear that i'm taking you as my one and only enemy and you got nothing to say then shutup . easy job!

p/s : sorry readers for my vulgarities in this post.

Chatbox war.

2009-03-31T01:33:00.007+08:00

bear in mind that Kar yan & Kary-yan's one and only enemy . Which is OWHWHATAFUCKINGBASTRARD KOON.
only reason we started this war was because he's being such a total asshole that had hurt and tore out her heart , A awful guy like you would probably regret for being an asshole especially after YOU get hurts ! you're not masculine to deserve her, remarkably girl like her will get a better guy that she deserves . Do you even relize that you're a real menace that everyone hates and because of all those pathetic things you've done in a thousand little ways toward her has made it clear that you're taking her for granted without thinking how she would feel ?
LMAO , being blocked and post out ? Are we even talking to ourself ? If you think we are then you replied our tag for ?
BRAINLESS PEOPLE WHO NEVER THINK BEFORE THEY TALK.

p/s : I just wanted to bring it up to note that non of the words can define how terrible are you.
MEAN WHAT YOU'VE SAID PREVIOUSLY. IF YOU DON'T KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT.

ILOVEYOUTOOTWINNIE

EMO

2009-03-30T23:49:00.005+08:00

Would you actually rather to know the truth if it's gonna depress & hurt you deeply you or would you rather not and act like as if nothing has happen ? Maybe not knowing the truth might make me happy at one moment, but then cause me extraordinary pain in the end after a unexpected discovery that is not acceptable .You was once amazes me and i actually tend to think that you're the relyable one . funny joke right ?I wish I would have saved all the tears you made me cry for exact 2years, then wasting it on you. All you are to me is NOTHING but bad memories .
hopefully you will be automatically deleted from my memories as fast as possible.

p/s : I will not mention who & don't bother to waste time ask me who was that person.

Driving lesson sux !

2009-03-25T23:39:00.006+08:00

ifuckinghatedrivinglesson.

Don't ask why , Don't think it's phobia toward driving too .
Always pissed me off whenever i'm having driving lesson.
I've been dragging my lesson for almost 5months .

YES , 5FREAKINGMONTHS.
from last year dec till now . I keep MIA myself from Encik.Rahim (The uncle who's gonna teach me how to drive ) & giving lame excuses why i couldn't attend for 5months.
Missson : Gonna pass my P ASAP since my temporarily L license gonna expire soon and i don't wish to retake undang or whatsoever that's involve in driving. ARGH !

I actually automatically go for driving lesson due to my temporarily L license gonna expire soon ? ICOULDNTBELIVETHIS.

indecisive people ;)

2009-03-24T18:02:00.005+08:00

♥R's offday today ! WOOOHOOO
But he woke up late today & reached my house around 2pm and told me that he's exhasuted because he watched anime till 4am + yesterday !
after that , I asked him to take a rest first since I'm not that desparate to go out .
While he's sleeping ,I was actually happily chatting with ♥K and others without his disturb *evilsmile* woke him up around 7pm and went to PAPARICH (Kepong) AGAIN .
since both of us are always indecisive when it comes to
WHERE TO GO ?
WHAT TO DO ?

p/s : I wanted to find you ♥K but it was too late for that day . Hope to see you soon ! iloveyou

J ♥ K

2009-03-23T23:55:00.006+08:00

Today ♥R suppose to accompany me but end up ♥K is the one who's there for me, since ♥R 's offday changed to tomorrow in a very last minute ! Big sacrifice for My lovely ♥K , see I actually using public transport (LRT) just to meet you , I know you're touched and you will slowly realize from the bottom of your heart , I will sacrifice anything that I can , so I would able to see your smile on your face. Don't shed your tears after read this ! LMAO . Tried my very best to reach there as early as possible and I reached there around 4.30pm ! Think that's consider fast ?
Meet her at the entrance of Gucci in KLCC and off we bounce to get our drinks at 'Juice works' ! Since I'm so concern about her health , i helped her ordered 'Berry Burst' *WINKS*
owh my , I start to feel that I'm too good to be true for her . LOL
She changed the spiderman top that she bought today and looks pleasingly adorable , after that we cabbed to Timesquare and walked around and suddenly thought of neo prints ! We only played 2 machine due to My darling ♥K spend all her money on shopping before this ;(
Tummy started to growls and had our dinner in Gasoline ,I'm curious what's inside her bag since its big and heavy so i opened the bag and check it out, found loads of 'STUFF' , what suprised me most is that she has a cubic inside her bag , gawdd i remembered the days where I used to sit there for 6hours just to solve that freaking thing but sadly , I failed & gave up so just throw it away . Guess what ? she solve the blue and white in less then 3min *STUNNED* ! ♥R called right after my dinner with ♥K and was told that he reached , so we went to find him and we headed to Cheras Leisure Mall to yumcha till 11pm + !

Here's the Pics that we took with ♥K

looking forward to celebrate our 1year anniversary .

iloveyoualottwinnie .

dreadful day ;(

2009-03-22T21:21:00.005+08:00

This few days has been a real stuggle and dreadful for me as I'm dealing with illness .
I spend my whole day Sleeping like there's no tomorrow ! and I'm still feeling atrociously bad that I would just collapse any minute and decided head back to sleep so that the pain won't hunt me , eventhough excessive sleep may not be good for health and would eventually messed up my sleep timing , but i got no choice and better idea to avoid the pain .
Time to go sleep again ;)

So little to say yet so much to do !

2009-03-21T02:50:00.007+08:00

I find myself losing track of what I've been doing & everything seriously screwed up but you're always the one that i can put trust to , when this occur and the one that always be there for me to listen to me whine, rave and complain .Whenever i'm moody and endup being sucha bitch & unresonable toward you, you tried to be patient and tolerant me. You drove 40min from your house all the way to my house just to pass me a bottle of herb medicine for sorethroat / cough without letting me know and taking good care of me today, is the awesomest suprise I ever had . Your sincerity touched me

Stupid cough / flu / fever / phlegm !

2009-03-20T18:07:00.004+08:00

Isn't a good day for me today ! What's worse than feeling sick + grounded ?
Anyway , I just came back from KLCC ,since i'm grounded and only allowed to go out with my family ! I tried my luck to asked whether I can go KLCC to check out the new arrival for collar tees that the staff there reserved for me in Ralph Lauren ! surprisingly , she said '' OK '' ! had my lunch in SAN FRANCISCO COFFEE ! ate my favorite club sandwich and drank hot mocha , i couldn't manage to finish my sandwich & mocha due to a rough day I'm having today , sore throat / fever / phlegm and coughing is getting worst & my voice turn out to something funny that's undescribable .Really got no appetite for anything anymore ! Bought a collar tee with no regrets and bounce back to home happily .
Owh , went pharmacy for my medicine too ! hate going to clinic for doctor, i don't know why .
I'm going to rest now , Just ate my medicine and it taste awful ! Yucks .

Moments with my Beloved.

2009-03-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

Went 1u with my lil sister today ;)
She woke me up early in the morning so that i've got enough time to prepare.
everythings haven't been going smoothly since I'm officially grounded , I'm only allowed to go out with my family ! Yes, i'm having hard time now ! Doing nothing at all but rotting .
Mummy fetch me there and we reached around 2pm , First thing when we reached there is to think about ''where should we have our lunch ? '' . Will leave that as a questionmark since i Don't know what's the name of that restaurant ;)
After that we went GSC for movie , watched Dragonball evolution
Rated : 5/10
Both of us had Haagen-Dazs 's ice cream after the movie.

I've lost the mood of blogging and all for today thanks to my awesome internet .
Friggin SLOW .
I will stop whining now , if not this will be endless .

Sorry Gary & Y♥

2009-03-18T22:42:00.004+08:00

So sorry that i couldn't go out today .
I'm grounded for some reasons , you guys should know right ?
But i'm sure this will get over real fast , since i gonna get my P license SOON.
GARY ! why must you leave me and others in KL , dont go persue your studies in Penang.
I swear i gonna neoprints + shopping with you like mad if i were there today and drag you to go ladies's toilet with me to camwhore instead of men's toilet *SMILE*
you're lucky last time ,that the toilet in redbox is small and couldn't fit much people .
Seriously gonna miss you like crazy ;(
Went ' Pasar Seni' at night for dinner with family and saw a super cute white toy poodle .
I have already been searching for 2months and there's no news about new born silver MKA toy poodle ! I'm so desparate to own one that i would buy it form any price the seller offer ! YES , call me crazy for that. Cheng Liew called before i sleep and sang me few songs , i honestly think that he's talented in singing ! his voice hypnotized me , really really sweet of him . Keep it up !

Y♥ there's no such thing as 'no fate' between our friendship but just the matter of timing.
you know iloveyou right ;)

Lucky to have you here.

2009-03-17T23:53:00.004+08:00

I'm depressed over alot of things and seeking for self-improvement.
thinking why am i so uselss for weeks ! bec of distractions or addiction ? and what should i do and how to improve myself ? Some may ask '' why i got no initiative to be independent in whatsoever i'm doing '' Do you ever expect a girl like me living under the protection my parents and brought up in good enviroment with no financial /other worries will be independent ? My parents don't even given a chance to do so , I have to freaking follow whatever they said . I received the consequences and i truly regret , now I tell myself that I won't repeat the very same mistakes I've made . I know that I may not have made the right choice in the past but that doesn't mean i will not made the right choice now and in the future ? Noone can predict what's going to happen in the future but at least now I knew that I'm in wrong & I think i deserve a chance to start all over again .I won't give up when i knew I haven't even started yet and prove that your judgement towards me and my results are all WRONG . I admit that i doesn't take SPM seriously due to this mind set of mine '' people will not care about your spm results , they will only care your final destination which is degree/master ''
But , if you get bad spm result, this may or may not say something about you neither ? there is always reasons why you score badly . Lacking of effort / lazy-ness / weak foundation ? SPM is just a milestone, I won't let it define me ! However efforts and hardworks is still needed.Eventhough i never get result that i was expected , but everything has a SIGNIFICANCE if you determinate to workhard for it .
Bear in mind that if you wins once doesn't mean you win the next round & if you lose doesn't mean you gonna lose forever too , failure is the key to achieve success .
Well , at least i didn't flung SPM , passed all my subjects but just less A's =/
I promise i will put my very best effort , i hope everything goes perfectly right this time .

R♥ Came to find me around 9pm to cheer me up/ make sure I'm alright and waited me in my house , since i went out for a walk around my housing area to cool down my emotions , later on I called up KC asked '' whether he's free to go yumcha with us '' sadcase that he couldn't make it due to loads of homework need to be done in a limited time ,so I asked R♥ to fetch me to cheras so that i can find Twinnie , but he said ' its too far and I will be late for home since I needa be back home before 12am '' .__.
so endup only both of us went PAPPARICH ( Kota Damansara )

Thank R♥ , for always being here for me regardless of what happens eventhough i've been MIA-ing + ignoring you for few days.

Midvalley ;)

2009-03-11T21:59:00.004+08:00

I couldn't belive myself that i got transport in the very last minute to midvalley today !

A very lucky day indeed , asusual I'm always the late one ! Not always but most of the time actually ;) Gary and Kenneth spend around 1hour window shopping while waiting me and Stephanie to reach Midvalley ! HAHAHA . I called Gary and asked whether Stephanie reaching there around what time so i won't be the last one , I thought maybe i might not be the last to reach but in the end she still reach there earlier then me .

Arrived there around 1.30pm and meet up with Gary , Kenneth , Stephanie !

the first thing I said to them today '' OMG , Gary look so funny with spec '' and keep laughing like psycho . Can't blame me for that cause I really never see him wearing spec before , But you're still cute Gary ! was confused about whether we should watch movie or redbox first . Endup we push all those decision stuff to Gary , and he said redbox first . See how much we love you Mr.Gary ! ;) we spend about 3hours + happily singing there till 6.30pm .

and it's time to say goodbye for me , since I must be back home early on that day .

So sorry i couldn't go movie with you guys after that !

p/s : Result coming out tomorrow , do attend my funeral ;(

Adore her ♥

Smile Smile

Jessica is better then Gary

Hehs ? Cute Couple

Envy Stephanie & Kenneth

Confused !

2009-03-03T23:29:00.004+08:00

Tong Gua aka Wilson

Loads of things happened to me that causes my massive headache but I seriously don't feel like revealing it here. Hang out with Wilson in the afternoon today since i'm gonna attend my friend's farewell dinner later in 1u , meet Wilson in coffee bean & off we go to check out if there's any nice movie ! Too bad , Non of the movies caught up our attention , so we headed to Carl's Jr .
Out of a sudden , I actually told him my unresolved problems that been driving me crazy for few days . Your advices helped me out alot & reduces my need for tissues , but you should know it’s so difficult for me to take actions .
Perhaps its best to leave things as it is.

Went timesquare with twinnie !

2009-02-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

Today went timesquare with my Darling Kary-yan !

I was so eager to see her that i actually barely breathe when she smsed me and said she's reaching in like ? few minutes time . My heart pounding faster and faster plus i've been awaiting to see her for like for a long time eversince '' something happened '' in the past .

Since timesquare is her so called '' PARADISE '' , and I hardly go there , yeah ! I'm lost while finding her when she reached timesquare , after few minutes later she found me instead of me finding her in the main entrance of starbuck . I will be the one and only finding you next time ! ISH ..then we shop around and bought a pair of nerdy spec / Twins top !

camwhore + Neoprints !

Promise will fulfill what i've promised ,camwhoring with you whole day SOON .

Misson to Accomplish = Twins shoes

The nerdy spec we bought ;D

Dont be shy !

Kary-yan & Kar yan

Twinnie cutting neoprints

Thanks R♥

2009-02-14T23:22:00.004+08:00

Have a wonderful day today ,eventhough the ending of today is not what i thought how it was suppose to be . Thanks R♥ for the present & sweet memories ;)
will always remember you.

Named it DumDum !

Farwell ;(

2009-01-07T10:58:00.000+08:00

I've been working in Gaa-Goo Kids for 6days !
and i seriously can't continue working there due to the salary is low .
10am -10pm (weekdays )
10am-11pm ( weekends )
Not really 10am , i reached that place around 9.20am to sweep the floor / wipe mirror / mop floor ! RM900 per month + FULL TIME ? LMAO salary ,meet friends like Wyne / Ai Hui / Chow Hui while i was working there , they are friendly .
Since that shop got NO CUSTOMERS AT ALL ! i've been sms / talking with them everyday.
we even bring monopoly and play ? LOL
6th day of working there , it is time for me to say goodbye ;(
i visit them often since 1u is pretty near my house , but they're all ipoh-ians ! and going back to ipoh very soon since SPM result is coming out . Hope they'll come KL to persue their futher studies here.Before i left they actually held a farewell party for me ! hehs , enjoy that moment .

KLCC!

2008-12-15T15:46:00.002+08:00

i realised i've been waking up early this few days , same as sleeping early !

i slept around 6pm in the evening to the next day 5-6am i will wake up automatically by myself without the alarm clock almost everyday , then i'll go jogging or maybe cycling .

went KLCC with mummy , since she wanted to buy ''something'' , after that ashley told her the ''something'' that she want sold off after she reach that shop , sadcase .

Mummy was so upsad that time when she heard that , but she already got alot of that ''something'' so i guess it's okay for her . After KLCC , mummy fetch me to shuwei's house , have my lunch with her , Yes i know ! FINALLY , watched tv's shows and play pingpong together !

Kelly call me up previously asked whether to go shopping together or not , but I seriously got some problem in my financial since my mom is not going to give me allowance anymore , ONLY can shop when my mom is around , so i don't need to pay everything myself . Hehs , as you already know i'm spoiled child ! Sorry yea Kelly ;(

1U shopping.

2008-12-14T15:37:00.003+08:00

Not really in the mood today , dont feel like doing anything except shopping so I went 1u today , since I got nothing to do at home ! seriously rotting .

my lil sister bought her school bags at Calvin Klein as for me i bought a pair of flat slipper from there ! Yeap, i've been crazy over shoes nowdays . good thing ?

Anyways , i think i'm alright after the shopping

Undang !

2008-12-13T17:20:00.006+08:00

What an exhausting day !
That undang KKP thingy which is KURIKULUM PENDIDIKAN PEMANDU is driving me insane ! woke up 5am in the morning and get myself prepare , am i just mad ? okay, maybe i am a little over excited at first , but that was not the main reason of me waking up this early . The main reason was my stomach is still aching very badly + i slept at 6pm yesterday ;) i know i'm good ! Hehs , after that Encik.Rahim , which is the person from driving school and also my ''future driving teacher'' IF only i pass my Undang test , he reached my house around 8.00am in the morning and fetch me to Setapak , if i'm not mistaken , the place where the KPP held ! then the lesson start at 9.00am ,and guess what ? i'm the only chinese in that class , not being racist or anything but i just feel weird very weird ! i think i'm not the only one who felt that way , i guess ? maybe the peoples there felt the same of my presence ? i got no idea , but i'm so LONELY inside plus i got no friends there ! Geeez. Like , when i dont really completely understand what the person is teaching or talking infront i got noone to translate for me since my BM language is kindda weak , there's this girl sitting beside me , she's quite nice but we kindda got troubles in communicating with each other, she was quite fun to talk to eventhough is hard to get along with each other. the lesson takes like 7hours ? it ends around 4.00pm ! Friggin tired . Reached home around 5.00pm & my lovely little sister bake me ginger bread man , Adore her so much ! was suppose to hang out with hillary and amanda today , but that hangout just clashes with this KPP thing , HAIHS ! I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH ! miss chloe too ;(
i wonder when will be the next time i see you all again !

SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP

2008-12-07T23:54:00.001+08:00

Becoming more and more lazy . hehs !
SLEEP -> EAT -> SLEEP -> EAT
YES, this is what i do everyday , and everyday i'm getting more and more sleepier and more hungry , trying real hard to control myself . I seriously need a job to kills my time and I desparately need cash , time pass real slow for me during this holiday , since my ''GOODMOTHER'' don't plan to give me allowance anymore ,she said '' I am too spoiled that I shouldn't spend my money like water whenever i get them , i should manage my cash wisely '' like WTF , her words are always like thorn . So now BYE BYE SHOPPING , BYE BYE NEW HANDBAG , BYE BYE NEW WALLET , BYE BYE EVERYTHING THAT I DESIRE TO HAVE .Anyways , i don't have any working experience before , i got no idea who is going to hire me .Some of my friends even bet , i will give up after working for 3-7days ? Geez , This is so ENCOURAGING .

Today i spend my whole day SLEEPING , nothing really i can blog about today ;D

3 days post !

2008-12-06T22:47:00.003+08:00

December 4 -

Went clubbinq at BARCELONA with aiai Steph , miko LeeTeng , Ker Yen , May Yi, Kathleen, Kelvin, Niqel , Lipeng , there was actually 3 Jessica included me and some other people.
In the afternoon we went 1U for Movie . I was so eager to see aiai and Miko that time ! love them loads .After that Miko's friend drop us at Sunway Pyramid while waiting some of the friends . Yeap , wait till around 11.50pm , YES after few hours of waiting we finally the friends of miko's finally arrive . Guess what happened while we waiting siting outside smoke and slack ?

STORY TIME !!
at first , a old lady around 65+ year old walked by , and ask for direction to her hotel '' SUNWAY HOTEL '' i never been to sunway for ages so i totally keep quiet , so Miko and Kathleen said ''walk straight behind and she'll reach there '' so she walked there , aiai was too kind hearted , she couldn't bare to see old grandma walking alone , so she accompany her ;)
like how good right ? first time i see aiai went pyramid + walk the grandma to the hotel not knowing the direction of it too . Too good to be true ;) * SHE LEARN FROM ME *
after 5min aiai walked back to us with the grandma due to wrong direction the bouncer in barcelona and Miko/Kathleen's gave , so the grandma suggest her to borrow phone to make a call for her daughter . According to aiai , she gave weird numbers that looks like KL/ SG numbers , aiai asked '' what number is that ? '' Grandma answered '' Her daughter's number '' aiai press call .....
03xxxxxxxxx = error. then 019xxxxxxx = some indian guy picked up !
Then she asked ahma again , that where is she from . Grandma answered ''she's from SG''
case solve , just add +65 then TOOT TOOT ! after somewhile her daughter was told that she was safe here with us and we waited her daughter to take her back near the starbuck while waiting for miko's friends.
After somewhile , appear 2 lil kids infront of us , TWINS ! like OMFG , they are so so cute
but miko scares the lil girl away ;( HEHS.
11.50pm , miko's friend came and we went to the parking lots to put our stuff in the car ! and silly miko actually wanted to change in the parking lots , but then end up changing inside the car . FUIYOOOH , sexy sexy after changed , same as aiai after taking ther jacket out . ENVY
make up for awhile , and there we go .

DECEMBER 5 -

Was too tired after clubbing and hang out , so i actually slept whole entire day !
woke up 12am to cook maggie then went back to sleep around 3am .

DECEMBER 6 -

Went out with kelly , Lyn and kelly's bf ! forgotten then name of her bf so yea ..
Kelly came and fetch me around 4.30 pm when it was suppose to be 3.00pm , waited for 1hour 30min ! WTF , so tired of waiting , eventhough i waited at home but still ;/
then fetch lyn to bangsa for don't know what , owh yea ! and Kelly show me her ''working place ''
inside bangsa village 2 ! and heard that her new car that is less then a month BANG someone's car and need to pay up to 10k + ! you can see how dangerous am i when she's driving .
Hope my parents actually bought insurance for me . After that , Lyn said she need to be back home before 5.30pm , so yea ! Kelly fetch her back and then meet her boyfriend up when i'm still here . HELLO , i don't want to be lightbulb here ? But , its nice to meet her boyfriend , he was nice at least better then HER EX , FUCKING IDIOT BASTARD KENDRICK .
WHO ACTUALLY WHACK HER EVERYTIME , AND ALMOST KILL HER ! wtf , you motherfucker, like what the fuck is your problem man ? seriously a psycho !
i'm so going to sue him if i was her . okay ! went back 8pm sharp .
thankgoodness. If not i will get nag by my parents AGAIN .

Unresonable

2008-12-05T23:59:00.002+08:00

Why must people angry me for no apparent reasons ?
I mean , what's wrong with me never reply and sleep like there's no tomorrow after SPM . Hey , i never sleep for 50+ hours just because of that FUCKING SPM what do you expect ?
staying up to studies and non stop doing exercise books . I just need a rest after that !
why can't just you understand how tired am I ?
Had you even think about how i feel when I need to SLEEP SO BADLY , and you being like this ?
If just because of this matter that makes you angry . I'M FINE WITH IT , REALLY
i don't think I'm actually wrong , and i guess you know who are you .

replies.

2008-10-18T01:11:00.003+08:00

Jessica Yee, what's th point you typing all these out? I don't know what th fuck happened t you recently cos you don't even tell me. Now, th way I know bout your daily life is from your blog, yet I don't know th details. Alcohol? &Smokes? I never angry you this asshole so much befr, you wanna end your life fast ye? Why not you just take a dagger &kill yourself like that. Then you don't hafto waste anymore time.

Kary-yan , i Don't even know where to start from , i Don't even want to look back at what i did from the Past . Yes , i admit i've been having this kind of immature thinking for awhile . Summary of everything is i need love and care alright , what i did is just part of it to get attention , eventhough it's stupid to hurt myself , but i will give a try , but after i think back today , it won't be next time anymore . you know what ? your advice paid off , and i'm not avoiding my problems , i'm facing it RIGHT NOW , it is tough . Real tough ! yes , this is the way i are , i rather keep everything to myself then telling peeps about my prob , i Don't even think they give a damm to my ass probs ?will take it as a jokes , or maybe make fun of it like '' EMO FREAK '' ! so , why on earth should i tell , and creating so many probs to them ? will i actually feel better when i tell out and end up ? ppl making fun of everything and take it what has happen to me to them is just a rubbish ? eventhough it is for them but it is not for me . I never been through all this , don't blame me . i Dont even want the people i love , You're included to involve in my asshole things.Overall i can tell you i just don't want you to worry for everything that happen to me in this whole freaking month. NO , i won't even ask you to spend your time to listen to my shyt probs ! whatever you like to scold or call me i won't be offended . i deserve all this scolding. i'm just hard to be understand . SORRY KARY-YAN

PS : people who want to scold me just go on , i wont avoid from all of your scolding ANYMORE.

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work hard for it ;D

2008-10-17T16:39:00.009+08:00

B O O

I know things is hard to go on with my result like this BUT i will still work hard for it !
i will wait , i belive my patience will pay off in a long run ! When i think it's worth , means it worth , my time , my effort, my EVERYTHING. I will put my effort to capture your heart . What i want from you to Value me like how i value you eventhough it may be frustrating to purse you slowly .

NOMORE ALCOHOL , BUT ACTIONS WILL BE PROVEN

OCL
OCL

OCL

Asked Ken to send me the pics , so so cute !
Especially the eyes , just simply adorable ;D

suffering ~

2008-10-17T08:04:00.003+08:00

Here i am sitting on my bed , Don't even know why i want to blog at this moment !
Ok, i can already feel like dying now , went barcelona yesterday and drank damm ALOT , more then i actually expected , yea , smokes too .
i knew that my stomach got prob , about that lil hole in my stomach and yet ? i drank like mad.
i knew i got asthma , and yet ? i learn to smoke till my lungs is Freaking pain now .
Barely able to breathe now and the lil hole in my stomach is torturing me , example :

whatever i drank i vomitted out
whatever i ate i vommited out

Never plan to actually go barcelona and all , everything happen really sudden , with stephy , AJ , WT and me ! i asked WT to fetch me out , anywhere just to cool down myself , end up AJ called us out , that time me and WT was like making a decision whether to go anot since we never bring enough money out . end up we say ''YES'' . fucked it ! he mixed the alcohol , and asked me to finish it all . EVERYTHING ! and i actually did . Stephy just drank 1 cup . and me ? i can't even count how many cups . Think it's going to be bottles if add up all the cups i drank , after that i was alright with it, until when WT fetching me back . start to vomit and feeling the pain in my lungs till NOW ! i got no energy to even type anymore .

RIP mr.Ramli !

2008-10-14T23:23:00.010+08:00

'' With Deep Regret we would like to infrom you that mr.Ramli Maidin passed away at 4.05pm . APPIT SMART SCHOOL ''

This message is what i received this afternoon ? like WTF !

WHY ! why is this world so unfair , and why is god being so unfair , to bring a kind man like him away from this world ? I had never thought of it before, but apparently what happen had happend , I seriously never met any pricipal as good as him till now in my life !
tho, i really do hate my life now , the peoples around me that actually care , love or whatever , is like a stranger that i never met before ? THINGS CHANGED ! yes , it does .

'' FAMILY '' ? do i even know what is that ? NO , i dont think i even have one ?

'' FRIENDS '' ? DON'T EVEN MENTION

''LOVE'' ? Can actually say ''screw it'' to that word , NOONE CARES?

quarrel-ed with parents AGAIN , yea ! its all my fault okay ?
thanks to my dad , forcing me to go dinner , end up , everyone is back with a face that's like i donno how to describe ! was quarreling something about studies just now, while parents are ordering food and all in aunt's restorant , so half way mom was so pissed about something which i think it's so ridiculous ? yea , since she so dislike me and all . i get my ass off that table and sit ALONE in another table myself , think she will actually be more happy without me ?
Dont worry alright , after 18 ! Won't see me staying with you all , i will leave you all alone .
okay , my wallet went missing last week , so i got no cash at all ! not kidding

i owe my aunt RM48 for the things i ate just now , will pay her up within this week , i Don't know how , but i will think of anything to pay back . gawwd ! just taofu and fishball thingy, soya bean for drink cost RM48 ! this is just so expensive .

owh yea , quarrel-ed with OCL , i'm not worth your belive , i keep breaking what i promised ;(

see , i'm a bitch right ?

GERAK GEMPUR tomorrow ;(

haven't even study ? hehs , screw it then .

all the things that happened just make me hate myself more .

pms !

2008-10-08T14:04:00.016+08:00

Skipped school , since i got my PMS , seriously not feeling really well !

i'm actually in the mood of watching DVD's

watched Mamma Mia AGAIN ! this is like my fourth time watching this movie .

Laugh and cry , cry and laugh again & again no matter how many times i watch this movie !

Super Awesome musical movie , that is a MUST for everyone to watch

RATED : 5/5

Babylon A.D , that movie is fine i guess , i mean ,it looks pretty interesting in the trailer but end up not what i expected from
RATED : 2/5

EMO EMO EMO

1.Alcohol needed
2.Care needed
3.Encouragement needed
4. Love needed
5.Listener needed

FUCKYOU OK ? I'M NOT BORN FOR YOU TO SLAP ME !
YOU DONT EVEN HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO SO
SO STFU AND DON'T BOTHER ABOUT ME LEAVE ME ALONE ALRIGHT ?
I KNOW I'VE BEEN SUCHA BRAINLESS , IDIOT , DUMB KID TO YOU GUYS
DON'T EXPECT MUCH FROM ME , I'M YOUR FALSE HOPE

nomore wallet ;(

2008-10-07T15:46:00.002+08:00

First period : ART
i was affraid to enter ms.penny art class , cos i'm sure she'll be mad at me like a insane bull for not taking my trial for art last 2 week ! which is before holiday and last day before holiday , like who wants to actually attend to school on that day ? pffft. ok, so i better go for art class instead of ponteng , since my school is surrounded by CCTV . so i walked in art room with fear , but i scare the hell outta myself in the end , ishh ! i felt guilty actually ,from beginning of this year i never draw before . hehs ! so i decided to ask teacher whether i can retake my art exam , surprisingly she said ''OK'' ! see, i'm just thinking too much in the first place , she's not that scary after-all !

LUNCH TIME
Thought today will be ''OK'' day ! but then i realised my wallet is missing ! GONE
noone knows that my wallet is always inside my bag . Seriously ! but that IDIOT BASTARD who stole my my precious wallet is going to be so dead IF only i found out who is it , got not much inside my wallet , RM278 ( just borrow from my mom to survive till dec , since i spend my 4 months pocket money on my sister 's present ) , name cards , Discount card . thats all i guess ! luckily my IC is not inside ! WTF, Please la ! thief who stole my wallet , i dont need sympathy from you to left RM4 for me , disgrace of thief , unprofessional till left RM4 for me for fuck ? if want to steal just take all if not don't touch ! i used that wallet less then 3 months , Isssh and now it's gone from my life . i used 1week 24/7 to beg my parents to buy me that wallet last time , since they said '' i am still young and it cost about RM1.3k '' ! but in the end , they still bought me . I am sucha irresponsible person ! I HATE MYSELF

AFTERNOON
my stomach is not feeling really good , so i sleep like there's no tomorrow ! from 4pm - next day 11am.

( ''Title : polluted river with rubbish inside '' i know this looks a bit like 7year old drawing )

(Messy table , used 3hours on that stupid drawing TIME TO CLEAN UP)

Fuggin moody

2008-10-05T15:42:00.005+08:00

FUCKED UP DAY

MOODY

YOU THINK EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED IS REASONSLESS ?

THEN JUST LET IT BE

I AM JUST BEING ATROCIOUSLY DUMB IN THE FIRST PLACE

hehs ?

idiot face

❤ Spongebob

Right Decision !

2008-10-03T20:14:00.004+08:00

i Think i am doing the right things ! HOPEFULLY i am
i've decided not to online after this week , i swear i will not for the sake of my SPM & future till my examination is all over then i am done , i can fly outta my cage anytime after that , just like how prisoners release out from prison , but not blacklisted of cos ;)
maybe i will just update my blog and Shutdown the com after that , so that people who is concern about me know what am i up too ( if there is ), or maybe to prevent myself from getting mentally MAD due to study too much this month and not Online in other program . I actually wanted to make today as my very last day for this month to online but i seriously can't do it . i got too much things to tell my friends and i'm not done telling , so i will drag it till before Oct 6 ! i 've just lost my mind , can't belive that i'm sacrificing my online times on studies, i can tell you this is the first time i ever made this kind of decision , and i make sure myself that i can do it .

Parents are quarreling AGAIN . ishh , i wonder when can this stop between them.
i am like the middle person on their arguments.

A sweet message from Angeline ( Tuition teacher ) and also she is being insanely CRAZY at times . She bought me 5 books for this month , and guess what? she is buying me another 10 + Books next week ? Arghh , whenever she talk about Books ,my Goodness ! she will be as happy Larry ! seriously , you will see her non-stop promoting the books that she bought , I think she can be a good promoter tho . Hmmms , but if it's for my own good , i'll complete every books she bought me.

thank for her remind

Coffee Before Study !

2008-10-02T19:00:00.012+08:00

Loaded with Homeworks

Bored-ness

Empty Promise

2008-09-30T15:37:00.006+08:00

Why am i sucha PIG , i always wanted to wake up at 8-9am , but end up its always 12-1pm !
You think i want too ? i got cramp everywhere , just Don't know why !
You know i'm going and always wake up around that late , then i'm sorry alright it is not like i do it on purpose ? But does that mean you can break what you've promise me day before ? Empty Promises again ;) WOW , that feelings is so great that i'm going to get used to it . i swear i'm not going to talk anymore too .Why Must people just LOVE to break what they 've promise ? If you think you can't do so then Don't ever promise to others . things just goes so screwed up ! AND I'M NOT AS BAD AS YOU .

Twinnie ,Hope your Koon won't suggest temporaily split anymore with you ♥
He must got his reasons !

Leeyong , My com is lagging like mad that i can't play any games with you
-SO FUCKING BORED RIGHT NOW-

diky , Sorry for the ignorance . i never offline my com while i was AFK

Keith , why are you so good to me ? i really don't know how to repay back .

Weird Parents

2008-09-29T14:56:00.002+08:00

Okays ! i realised i didn't update my blog for few days .
Hehes , too too lazy .
Nothing much happen .
Just that my parents were just being weird , i mean seriously weird
I was suppose to go swiss with them around nov 5 this year, But they never know ,that date clashes with my SPM examination , so they were actually convicing me to go holiday with them instead of sitting for that exam ? i was shocked when my Grandparents / aunts and all were spamming my call and ask me to join them . '' Karyan , just go sit for that exam next year , since you already failed you Bahasa Melayu for trial , no difference from not taking that exam
( Bahasa Melayu fail = ALL subjects fail ) '' like OMFG , i felt so discouraging by their support .
i mean , i can work hard or something like this ? eventhough it's not much time left .
their encouragement is just so important to me to move forward but end up ....
Not to say they never think of my future completely , they actually did . My grandparents were discussing with my parents last night about it , and i OVER HEARD ! it goes like this
'' If Karyan desperately need a job or something , or she can't find a suitable one in future, just tell me i will make sure she get what she wants and the position she desire to be , talk to her about the offer '' i'm NOT RETARD , i can achieve my ambition with my own afford and persistance and i will make sure myself be determined to do so .

i was playing dota the whole day with LauLeeYong while i was sobbing my heart out , Thanks for the your company ;D

BORENESS!

2008-09-24T11:34:00.001+08:00

Today is Friggin BORED !
Econ's Paper hard like MAD , Both paper 1 and 2 .
Thanks to MR.YAP , for changing the skop for Econ last minute , like a day before the exam ?
Hopefully i manage to pass , But most likely i Won't .
Why Must he change the skop last minute , ISSH..
Was suppose to go out , but i didn't in the end , Super Headache that i can already see stars spinning and spinning around me .
so i went back home and rest my eyes till 10.30pm !.
Missed out all the fun today , they went sunway pyramid straight after that Econ's paper .
whatelse ? Owh yea , was on phone with Eekang just now , and talked about him stressing out about his addmath paper for tomorrow , but he got exact same question for trials paper due to leackage of goverment paper and what he should do is just pratice over and over again or maybe find out the answer for all the questions inside the paper then TAA-DA you got A ! that should be lucky enough ? Unlike me , struggling my ass outta myself since the question for my trials didn't leak out , out of a sudden , eekang wanted to see the drawing i drew last time during my history exam , so i send him and guess what ? he had a good laugh , which i Don't think it is Funny at all ! maybe a little cute . I GUESS , that is what keith said . Hehs
FUCKIT ! why must he come to say ''Hello'' , when i am actually Felling better !

My drawing ;D

Endless quarrel ?

2008-09-23T17:03:00.005+08:00

Perdagangan Paper 1 exam today .
i Slept at 5am+ yesterday ! was chatting with Nick till we are bored then only we go play Dota with him and his friends since he know i'm sad and all last night .Woke up at 9.00am , i thought the paper start at 11.20pm so i take my own sweet time bath and all till i take a look at my timetable till then i know the paper start at 10.30am ! Hehs , i freak out and panic when i found out i'm LATE ! real late , i thought teacher wouldn't let me enter the exam hall if i am late , But end up i wasn't late ;D thanks to my mom for speeding her car .
Finish the paper around 11.35am ! and everyone who doesn't take mandarin advance paper went back home except me , since my mom is so lazy to fetch me back so i'm suppose to wait till 3.45pm ! i waited alone in the class with yong chuen . Gawddamhim ! he is so _______ , keep on showing off that he's PRO in each and every subject infront of me , he can be good sometimes but most of the time he is mean , Owh ! and he lost melvin's wallet , what a unresponsible person he is , owh well who ask him to be so action everyday . stab HIM !
around 2pm , My friends who is take mandarin paper finish their exam , so we was planning to go out for lunch together .7 of us going out by WT and AJ's car , But end up we spend too much time on finding the principal to get the permission to let us out , so we change out plan to tomorrow !
Hope things goes alright tomorrow .
While we was finding principal , something ridiculous happened .
Ms.Caranghit or something like that , i don't know how to spell her name out .
i was standing beside her that time , so she was asking melvin ...

MS.Caranghit : Melvin , do have a scissor ? a big one
Melvin : Huh ? for what .
MS.Caranghit : to cut this girl hair ( which is me )
Melvin : Don't have
MS.Caranghit : Bring one tomorrow !
Melvin : OK .
MS.Caranghit : *asking a random teacher beside her * do you know how to cut hair ?
Random Teacher : Yea.
MS.Caranghit : i want to cut this girl's hair, girl why you tie your hairhalf, you want me to cut it ?
ME : * LAUGH* because i bath and my hair was wet just now.
MS.Caranghit : want to cut your hair still can laugh out .

But honestly , they won't anyhow cut people's hair in this school ! i think .
so far noone in our school got such case like hair got cut and so on ,
Time to go home !
While on the way home , my mom keep on asking about who is that guy who come to our house at night on sunday , OMIIGOD , she question me like i am a prisoner that just murdered someone , keep on asking are you bringing back your ''boyfriend'' to show parents and all ? SUPER LAME ! i say '' NO '' for don't know how many hundred times . gawd !
The first thing i reach home is to check msn of cos , and quarrel with OCL ;(
we always quarrel , like always , i wonder when can we be peace for like awhile , just awhile is alright , But everytime quarrel cases happens , IT HURT LIKE MAD ! cases like :

1. Can't sleep
2. Can't stop thinking
3. Felt stupid that i told how i feel

But , after for awhile things goes fine again ! we stopped quarrel and continue our chat , was suppose to play dota with Ruby actually. Looks like i put his areoplane again , since i want to chat with OCL more then i want to play ! but i guess Ruby is used to it , not the first time i put his areoplane .

skipped exam ;(

2008-09-22T21:03:00.003+08:00

LIES LIES LIES !
Yeap , i Lied to my parents and skipped my exam todaydue to i drank too much yesterday night.
Don't ask why . Sometimes eventhough i know i'm escaping from the fact and all but this seems the best choice i can do when i'm down , when i want to be left alone in my world with no cares no love ,NOTHING . it hurts so much when you found out it was all a LIE ! this is all an illusion of myself , i wonder is there anything i did was right in your eyes ? and witthout tellings me anything ? But , in the end i found out the truth that you're hiding from me . this is just double the hurt ! i'm sucha smart aleck ! eventhough i know it is a whitelies !
hehs! and i slept the whole afternoon today , since i want to be left alone again , not really in the mood for anything i wish someone in this world can just understand how i feel , what i want !
OK , here i am thinking what should i do for tomorrow , if i go to school teacher will be asking me '' Jessica , why you skipped your trials '' i will be dead , if they call up my parents and tell them i never attend yesterday , and what if i don't go for tomorrow 's exam ? since i skipped the paper 2 today and the paper 1 for tomorrow, it is only 1 hours 15 min. For tomorrow's paper i guess it's okay , even if i attend i will missed out like 60% of todays marks ! it still doesn't make me pass if i get like 40/40 for tomorrow ! that was Perdagangan paper ;) as for my science paper today !i manage to skipped both paper 1 and 2 ! means i got 0% for it ! hehs. Great news huhs ?
here i am once again wasting my parents money ! not the first time though, i'm sucha a BRAT !

Fucked Up day !

2008-09-21T23:44:00.001+08:00

Ingnorance ?
It feels like shit , When you got something to express out from your heart and end up being ignore ! i'm not as strong as what people thinks i am , i'm weak in the inside ,i may act like i don't care and don't mind at all , but i do really mind , more then anything ! i don't like being ignore and being leave alone , only find me when you needs and talk to me when you're bored ?
i Wonder what am i to you , i do have feelings too ! but i will continue tolerate and wait till one day you realise that the importance of me.
everytime you leave me alone , i will cry my ass out ! my twinnie Kary-yan is always the one who cheers me up and give me all the advices that will makes me feel i'm being bring out of that dark tunnel ! suprisingly , WT know what happens ! he came over my house immediately to check how am i eventhough i said i want to be left alone . i was cycling when he reached my house . so he waited and he asked for another bic so that he can cycle with me and to ensure my safety. so i go and get one more from my home ! i couldn't stop crying , eventhough so many advices is adviced by Twinnie and WT ! *rain start falling * , so we cycle back to my home .
Since my mom and dad quarreling , they won't care if guys come over my house or things like that , when he step inside the door .

DAD : Hi !
WT : Hi, uncle .
MOM : Hi boy , what's your name ?
WT : Hi, aunty my name is Wee Tat !
DAD : do you want to join me watch MANUTD & Chelsea match ?
WT : No thanks , it's okay uncle .
MOM : here is your drink, organic ribena ! ._.

After the parents talk with my friend we start to study eventhough he suppose to comeover to make sure that i'm okay and give me all the advices so he teached me math instead since i'm so weak at it and to not remind me of all the sad things that happened till 10.45pm !
and for keith aka BAKA ! he's always the one who tried out all everything to makes me feels better eventhough it's not everytime but it is always the right time when i need someone.

thanks alot ♥

Life is Full of Obstacle !

2008-09-20T23:16:00.001+08:00

Our Family is a Circle of love and strength, the circle grows each and everyday as days goes by , every joy and shared adds more love to our family Every obstacle faced together makes the circle of our family stonger , But Why must parents quarrel and spoiled their relationship for a small matter ? If they really wants to start quarrel,i hope it's not infront of me, but sadcase ! This happen right infront of me . I Guess this is just a temporarily thing happen between them, I wish i would have seen how they resolved their conflicts and all and back to so called '' Happy family ''.What parents don't realise is that while they may have problems with each other, the children aint feel good too . Each and every moment we as child will feel scare of parent ending up in separation with each other ! OK , it's all my dad's fault ! i mean not completely but for me i don't think my dad is doing the wrong thing , and there's a reason why my mom was so pissed about it . it happens like this

My parents and me dropby at my grandma's house , and grandma baked us durian cakes , so my mom bring it home without my dad knowing and leave it inside the car , as time goes by ..
it's time for us to go back home , the moment my dad step inside the car , he was like a mad bull ! seriously MAD , over the smell in the car ? so , my dad drive super duper fast to rush back home to get rid the smell . like 230km/h all the way , that's not the matter and the reason my mom pissed about , she's angry over my dad that being selffish and didn't think about others while he was driving insanely fast , cross over the traffic while it was still red , Don't see who's on the road and all ! he even almost bang a motorcycle and he still never slow down ? So , my mom couldn't stand his sleffish-ness anymore and ask for stop , put both ( Me and Mom ) of us down beside that road for safety .

DAD : Ok , you can go down but karyan is going with me .
MOM : NO ! you're putting us in danger and you expect her to follow you ?
DAD : Karyan , stay in the car !
MOM : Come Down now .
ME : Uhs ...
MOM : follow me !
ME : i Couldn't bear to leave my mom alone , so i decided to follow her .
MOM : Goodgirl . * Slam the door and shouted ' won't be coming back home for dinner ' *

i Know my mom is feeling sad and only thing she will do when she's sad is to shop .
While we was finding cab , i suggest that we go 1u then Pavillion ! and she said 'OK'
''Let's Bounce and buy as much as you want till you're happy'' i said
and WOW ! she really bought ALOT of things . like every shop she goes she will at least buy something , but as long as she's happy it's fine i guess ;)
Sooner,our legs is aching and heavy only we decided to go home .

Updated =D

2008-07-26T18:43:00.009+08:00

It has been ages since i actually Login and Uhhs.. Update my blog!
Ok ! Today MIRACLE happens as you see , WJ has been ignoring me and we never talk to each other for ages , No.. It was yesterday and today he talked ! HE FINALLY TALKED ? couldn't belive this , Okay .. he just asked about HTML and layout things thats all !
Good News that my Sweetheart Twinnie is in-relationship . Hope she will Found her happiness with this Koon Guy ! Dont bare to see her Hurt , as i said she is like My really really really really Good Girlfriend , you can also say One of the best !
My Com spoiled , Fug it ! so Fed up of everything , so i asked my dad to buy me a brand new one ! things goes like this :

ME : Daddy , My Com ''sot'' . Buy me a new one ;)

Daddy : sot your KUKU !

( he loves the word ''KUKU'' he said it's a really gentle word )

ME : i Dont have KUKU , But i got Cheebai !

Daddy : it was suppose to be KUKU , But donno why turns out to be a CheeBai .

ME : *Laugh*

Daddy : Okay , i will think about it alright ?

Grandparents is coming over later for dinner , needa get myself prepare and help my mom out.

school !

2008-06-27T11:04:00.010+08:00

Something goes wrong today ! I WOKEUP myself and prepare myself to go school
i woke up myself ? this is just so unbelivable , usully i sleep like there's no tomorrow ! like seriously .. Especially when the fact is that i wokeup to go school ? HAHAHA ...okays ! things goes fine and now i'm blogging in school , teacher wanted us to help out for the charity bazaar tomorrow since today is the last day for use to decorate and design our stall . and half of our classmates are all here in the ICT lab to search for things for tomorrow , Guess what ! Class who collect the most money during the charity bazaar will win a 1dayTrip to GENTING! excited ? Gawdd .. like we never been there before , no motivation for us to actually put all our afford in it though , unless its Trip to Europe ? i bet everyone would work their ass out . Okay before i actually Blog i was accepting all the friends approval thingy and everytime i approve people i will usully comment them and it start with ...

Thank For adding Boo_HoO ~ ♥

Appreciate It though Nice Meeting You

Hope everything Doing Fine there ??

xoxo

Jessica

and teacher saw me from the back and said ..

Teacher : Jessica, Stop playing and start helping

Me : i never play , i'minnocent teacher

Teacher : you said you were innocent since 2 years ago .

Me : *silence* OkieDokie . i will decorate it now !

Teacher : What thanks For adding BooHoo , Don't HUMSUP already

Me : *Shocked* Teacher ! i never humsup . i am as holy as priest

Teacher : Faster do now and stop friendster-ing.

Me : OK .

and after school Weetat called ! and asked whether i am free a not , cos AnJun and him is coming over to Cut things For tomorrow charity Bazaar ! so i said Ok , when they reach my house ...

Me : Woah , so many papers you guys bought ! and what is it for ?

WeeTat / AnJun : Siao , we never baught .

Me : Then ?

AnJun: There WeeTat 's idea to go art room to steal it .

Me : Uhs .. How ?

WeeTat : We hide it under our uniform ! HAHAHA

Me : Dont say steal use the word '' lend ''

Anjun/Weetat : LOL!

AnJun : after that Weetat suggest to go ur house to Cut this paper .

Me : what you want to do with this paper ?

WeeTat : AnJun said , this topic will be '' A helping hands ''

Me : *BLURS*

AnJun : First i will Draw my Beautiful hand on the paper , with 4 different post

Me : What does that have to do with charity bazaar ?

Weetat : Then we will sell this for RM2 per paper hand ! for people to write those comment and

all then stick it

AnJun : Jessica , if i ask you , will you buy ?

Me : NO .

AnJun : Weetat , will you ?

Weetat : Yes , and maybe

Me : see , i cut till so so nice ! unlike both of you

Weetat / Anjun : Ya la , let you win !

Me : what ! not let me win , Don't need let me win also i will win . is Fact !

WeeTat/Anjun : Perasan .

br>and we continue chat while cutting until... about 5.30pm they went back ! Since both of them are so PIG !

MIA

2008-06-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

For My own good and blah blah blah ~
i Will be MIA in Maplestory at least 6Months or maybe more .
so i will be able to concentrate in studies for my upcoming MAJOR EXAM, and not being anti-social , also to accompany back my friends who i ditched last time Because of Onlinegames . i Know i am selffish and all last time , But luckily i got a bunch of understanding friends who forgive what i did to them last time , and i hope the mistake i did last won't be repeated again ! i Know i always said '' i Will definetely be there on ... '' But end up ? where am i ?GAMING.. i Shall Bounce back to my studies now and continue my tuition homework that my teacher gave

Got Hacked ;)

2008-06-25T22:24:00.002+08:00

Okays. everything goes right
Until i got hacked around 12am-1am midnight on 6.16.2008 Which is 10days ago from now .
i was actually happily chatting with friends , and my PW & ID got scam by some scammer ?
i know i am stupid to belive that person who scam me was actually using my friend's Nickname.
not exactly the same nickname but it was close, and it looks alike .
So yea, i Cried for 3 days or maybe more ? My afford and all is all wasted ! WASTED
the time i spend the Money i used , thanks to my Dumb-ness .
And now i was thinking ..

should i continue ? and if i really choose to continue i gotta work everyday to rebuild back my fugging account ! WORK . i never work before from the day i born ? Is like i got what i want .i Don't have to work the get the money for the things i need , you can also say i am just a Brat who always waste all my parents money . I just don't know what will turn out if i really work .

If i quit ? Things Won't just go off from my mind so easily . You see i spend so much money on maple and so much times on it , and i never achieve what i want ! i should'nt give up so easily ?

i Really Dont know what to choose and what to do , i never think that this would happen on me !

REPORT CARD DAY =(

2008-06-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

Okays today is the report card day ! i'm so DOOMED .
i can admit that i never . i mean NEVER TOUCHED my book past few months or maybe more?
when the result came out ! i was like '' OMG, Jess you're so gonna be Dead ''
its all ''x'' instead of '' x '' Get it ?
pfft.. 8a.m in the morning , i get my ass outta my bed and prepared myself to hang out with my friends.Everything was actually fine ! until my parents shouts '' KARYAN , lets go to school and get your report card '' at that moment , i was totally SHOCKED , like i gonna bang by car or something like that , just stun . and i wonder '' How my parents know today is the ''reportcard day '' and i almost forgot today is actually the report card day !
until my sister said '' i told daddy and mummy '' .. GODDAMMHER !
I was fugging pissed at her , for telling my parents . she knows i got like a really bad result for this midyear exam and yet ?
and when we're on the way to school , i keep on cursing her in heart ! i'm bad huhs ?
when my parents first reach the school , they are just so eager to see my Homeroom teacher , which is MR.YAP , my ex-school math's teacher . he actually gave me an OKOK comment in my report card except he said that '' in her paper she answered all the things that is out of the question'' ! and by that sentence my dad was like '' you didn't pay attention in the class did you ?'' i was like '' Uhss , i did .. i just don't understand what the questions said ''
by that time in my heart i was like '' HOHOHO , i'm so dead ''
mydad is so gonna question my till there's no tomorrow ! and it's really true .
When i got back home i get like 10 hours + of lecture from him?

ME : i'm sorry dad
DAD : you always said you're sorry , and sorry don't solve the problems
ME : Then what can i say ? Thank you ?
DAD : what you promised me last year ? you told me you going to quit maple this year and yet ?
ME : DAD , it's not easy to quit ok ! it take times . you just don't understand
DAD : I dont understand ? i see you playing it like 24/7
ME : owh , you sure ? you dont anyhow said things which you 're not confirm ok .
DAD : ok then , maybe make it like this . after school maple after tuition maple .
Did you really study ? ask yourself , only you yourself know the answer

* FROMBOTTOM OF MY HEART *
* I DIDNT STUDY NOR TOUCHED MY BOOKS EVERSINCE I PLAY ONLINEGAMES*

ME : Yes i did , midnight ! i just don't like to study during afternoon
DAD : you're just abnormal daughter , people used the time to sleep so that they got energy to
concentrate in class in school for the next day and you ?
ME : ok , my wrong ! i should't get this kind of result i should have listen to you last time
DAD : its not too late to regret , i dont't know what you thinking , its your own life and you
think properly what maple benefit you ? and think about your future .

and eversince that chat with him . he never talk to me anymore
and i think i really pissed him off and most of all dissapointed him , he wasted so much afford and cash on me for studies and what i get ? gawdd , i feel so bad after that arguing with him .

HOHOHO !

2008-06-07T02:08:00.003+08:00

HOHOHO ~
Since My beloved Twinneh insist me to update my blog ! i shall listen to her for once ;) OWHWELL ! i am just too good to be true ! okays i should stop my self-praise .
so many things happen in these few days that i Don't think It's even enough for me to write here though . Okays! i will start with wj ;)
We are ok again ! yea , i know what you gonna say karyan ! we're a funny CPL , right right ?
But i am still worried , he always lag during midnight , donno due to what problem if let me know that someone actually stealing his line . WOAH !@#$% Better Don't ever let me know who . i will Curse him and Fking go whack him /her ! Cos , when he lag , he will usully pissed off and go offline =( and makes me miss him like CRAZY ! ._.
But yesterday , some sad incident happen to Wei Jie's dad , think his dad lost memory after accident or what i not sure about that ! when his mom trying to ask so many times what has happen , he Don't know , it bring down his mood Alot . i hope his dad get well soon and of course his aunty that suffering from cancer . for his dad i wish that it will only be tempo memory lost , i dont wish anything happen to him and his family ;(
As for my twinneh ! She Won't be going online often ! i wonder why does so many problems happen in these days ? why can't it just happen on me instead of my love ones . i rather me myself suffer from all these instead of them ! i dont want them to unhappy and all and go emo
but twinneh , i'm looking forward to shop with you during the mega sales ! HOHOHO
so we shall save more cash now . and if WJ quit will quit too =)
i Should be sleeping this time , Cos i needa get my ass outta my bed around 8am ? yeah
But it's okay if i don't sleep too , i don't find any difference . you see ! i keep having weird nightmares and it scares me like TOOT ! it has be continiously happened for 1 week
Owh , and before this i was replying Patrick's comment ! hahahas
haven't been see-ing him for quite a long while , i can see he become mature and grow taller in his picuture , good thing ;) But what is the bad thing ? He has became an alcoholic ! and a really serious type ! he drank from 2pm to 11pm ? Crazy huh ? what a bad role model patrick
still asked me to think of my future LMAO !
it's 2.30am i shall TRY to hit to my bed now and rest my eyes ! Night to myself

Happy Or Sad ?

2008-05-30T06:29:00.000+08:00

Okays ! Here I'm Once again , emo-ing
I know i'm not suppose too , But seriously i Don't know how i feel now . Happy ? Sad ?
i'm confused . suppose to be Happy Cause he talked to me like FINALLY ! around 4.20am . Yeah! i still can remember the time where he finally reply , i waited from morning to midnight!
i Know peoples may think why am i so stupid , and keep asking me is he worth my time .
i Can tell you Guys now ! HE IS ;) But i Just can't stop thinking why , i mean this feeling just weird , Like he's not the one i know before ! Ok, Maybe i just think too much again . it's not like i want too think , i'm just worried . pfftf , Owh yea and yeow called me , Since i'm so scare he might think i think too much again if i tell him how i feel so yeah ! Yeow called me in the right time and we talked for 1hours due to the fact that i am worried and Crazy Over my someone .

SUMMARY OF YEOW & MY CONVERSATION

Yeow : Hi , Jess ! How are you ?
Me : Don't know , not so good i guess ?
Yeow : What happen to you nowdays , Not like the girl i knew before
Me : me and him quarrel again ;(
Yeow : Owh, what going on with u both AGAIN !
Me : i told him he treat me ''cold '' thesedays , and he's abit unhappy about it .
Yeow : why is he so ''smallgas'' , you're just telling out how you feel , you're not wrong girl .
Me : i Don't care he's ''smallgas'' , i just care how he feel and maybe i'm wrong by telling how i feel to toward him , But i thought he should and wanted to know how i feel if things doesnt goes right
Yeow : He is Not being gentleman enough , and what u planned to do ? i Mean you should giveup on someone Who don't love you . Love is not a One side thing ! it's Both . When you both quarrel , Can't blame each other , Cause Both are wrong and you keep push all the blames and fault on yourself isn't that suffering ?
Me : I know ! i Understand what you mean . But i really Won't , Can't and Don't Want to giveup on him , you should know me well , i Won't give up on things which i think is worth and right . Besides that i belive he will know how i feel someday .
Yeow : When he knows how you feel , you will be in heaven girl ! i am a guy myself i know how guy thinks , they will only cherish and regret when they missed and lose it . so why not just go for others ?
Me : HEY , he ain't that bad ok ,and how many times i tell you i Won't go for others .
Yeow : haihs ! you are just so stubborn . Goodluck with him
Me : Alright , Thanks yeow talk to you later
Yeow : See ya

*TOOOT TOOOT TOOOT *

End of Call

Belive In Patience ?

2008-05-29T17:10:00.005+08:00

Sometimes a Guy that you desire repeatedly Missed your LOVESIGNALS, he is either not intrested or Not Available at the moment.Generally if you make eye contact and the guy turns away , Its pretty obvious , But this doesn't mean he necessarily finds you unattractive. Why not Just try again incase he is the SUPER SHY type of guy . If it still diesn't work ? There're Plenty of ''creatures '' in the forest , so Don't waste your enegry on the wrong one though .
But if you thinks he's really your MR.RIGHT , why not just be patience and wait ?YES, It can really be frustrating to purse the guy you desire slowly . In fact, It's Almost painful to wait for a Guy to make a move when all you want to do is make him to be YOURS ! But belive me alright , Your patience will pay off in a long run , i experience before and yes, its suffering , But if you think it's Worth Why not Just give a try ? When you manage and really sucess to catch a Boy by this your Patience , he will end up beliving that he was the one chasing you all the time. and since he belives he's put in such an effort to capture your heart, he definetly will value what he caught . A boy who values you will treat you very well indeed . i Got Confidence and Beliving in myself .

Waiting for him now is her One and Only chances and hope

She Love him with her heart and soul

She Felt blessed that she found him

Amazed by what he did , that made her so mad in love with Him

The word of '' LONELY '' doesn't exist being with Him

She Just simply scare of losing him

Unexpected Things.

2008-05-28T23:34:00.001+08:00

I was So Effin Upsad today, that luckily i got My twinnie AKA Karyan By my side to cheer me up. Girlfriend like her always understand me . it seems like magic , but it's really just a matter of paying attention . she listen to me and take my troubles to figure out how i think and how i feel . she learn all tiny details that wave my intricate live together. what is most amazing is that she always know exactly what i mean , even if it's not what i said maybe it's because her experience os life is so similar to mine that she can completely relate to what i'm facing each and everyday ? she knows how i feel is because she feel how i feel, somehow after having her it convinces me that i'm now Alone . sometimes it makes you rather tell your '' THINGS'' to your girlfriend then Boyfriend . Well , Boyfriend will marvel at your stamina . They won't always understand that how you feel and talking to girlfriends is therapeutic. After all , guys arer often inclined to ''SOLVE'' your problems for you . Karyan just simply lend the sympathetic ear and fresh perspective that allow me to figure out my own solution . Sharing feelings with people i trust brings a wonderful feeling of relief , of course . there is always a risk to confiding others and most of us get burned at some point . I'm Just emotioanlly Hurt after so many ''backstabb'' incidents happened and i'm sick of it ! why does people so lowlife to does all these things ?

i never Expect something happen yesterday , and yet it really happened . He , seems to be so cold to me after a talk in msn ;( i Just don't know why it will end up like this .

i think and think what mistaken i did that makes him think like that ? i really willing to change for him if i knew what things i did that makes him unhappy and all , But will he change for me too ? Did i treat him cold ? i'm still thinking , Question keep poping out in my mind now , traffic in my brain is just driving me insane .
I wish that we could go back , go back to the beginning to the time where the we are Happy and i also Hope we will be Alright again ;( i really cannot afford to lose him .